Still in Shock

[silver_stargate]

This is THE WORST song I could have found that I posted on bam_ryan_otp whilst going through the archives.

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I'm still variating between numbness and pain over this, Ryan I still can't believe you're gone.

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[heartagram]

and didn't i write to this song? :'( i honestly couldn't hate myself more.

[silver_stargate]

Don't Rissa, we couldn't have known, it's just fucking typical I should click on that page while still feeling like this, I just don't know what to do with myself, last 6 years every day I've done something to do with them, the comm, I don't have any clue what to do now :(

[heartagram]

i know, and i was one of those people that loved angst between them anyway. it was who they are. i do hate myself though because it was the first thing i thought of when it all happened. i was like go fucking figure than i bawled my eyes out. i haven't said anything yet in the community either but i am writing my entry for it because it was my life for 6 years too. they were my only OTP that never went away. we have to stay strong though. and maybe think about the good old days like when i posted those pictures back in 09 because our they were REAL. <3

[apostrophee]

I've run out of words to say. It just doesnt feel real, still.

[16shadesofwild]

That song. Jesus, it used to make me cry before, and now it's a hundred times more. This is just so shocking and sad, it's hard to believe.

[_hedgewytch_]

Happy Birthday Beautiful! I hope you are having a good day x

[silver_stargate]

Thank you hun. xx