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[silvercebo]

I deleted some entrys.

hey aint it easier to pretend that u dont care?... really. so I dont care!

I'm just praying that I'm wrong.

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[lisali]

You know to pretend things might be easy at first glance. But as soon as it you have a little time, even a second, to think about it, it all will come back and it will be worse

[silvercebo]

thanks hun, u know what... the thing is, the reason why I'm hurt is not my exbf. not at all... just a friend, I'm not sure if I really got that rite what hurt me so badly and I'm not gonna judge before I didnt talk to him u kno... I just dont wanna bother ppl at all...

u kno, probably I got something really wrong again and think too much and worry about stuff which is in the end complete bullshit... but the other thing is: maybe I'm right.

anyway I have loads of trouble with my family rite now and I really dont need this all... so I just try to not care...

a pitty that there aint more colour of fire gigs in cologne where we cld meet up :/ I miss them badly, really.

[lisali]

Yeah I understand pretty well what you mean.
Hopefully you can sort things out with that friend. And not to care is maybe better than worrying too much and maybe imagining things being not there, good or bad ones ;)
I understand the family trouble perfectly, too.
But I guess that as soon as you leave for UK it might be better because you have more space for yourself. They can't just call you and ask to come around to tell you stupid things and let you suffer.
COF yeah I miss them more than I wish I would. I was hanging out with them so often that they grew kinda close to me. They became friends in a way and there were I study I don't know anyone, so I went to see them as often as I could, which was 11 times! :O
Weird. I am still writing emails with them though, or meet them in York (as my bf lives there I am there as often as I can.. luckily flights to Newcastle aren't that expensive!) but yeah doesn't really help as I never see them as a group, as the band they have been, it's all different and sometimes awkward, dunno >.And Cologne

[silvercebo]

ur bf lives in york? oh boy you're lucky... my ex was living in leicester... i loved the fact he's been from uk lol... yea i can imagine how it is to see them apart... it was so great last year in november in cologne when they were walking around and fooling around with the ppl who were there... i still got the photos *sigh* i really miss them and their music... i still kinda cant believe it... u email them? how are they? boys are okay? i hope so :/

paderborn? hm that is exactly a 5-hr-train-drive away from me coz i dont live in cologne but 3 hrs away from there.. :/

btw things got sorted with that friend and I really been wrong. thank fuck for that tho... vvvvvv

[lisali]

He does I met him on the gig on which Thom left. Since then we've been emailing and so on, meeting up in summer and how things sometimes went, we got together. Yeah I guess they're fine. I hardly know anything about Matt, the others are alright, doing their stuff. It's still so weird, I mean to know them as persons, not as people on a stage, in that superficial-dreamy way :)

wow where are you living then?

yeah I guess you shouldn't worry too much about stuff, just wait out what happens before you get too sad or something. although it's easier to say than to do.

[marty_alcoholic]

got ur tex. can barely type... i didnt complain about u to anyone. i dont do that. if i think something i will say it u kno that. that comment on my lj is refereing to my lj. hope ur ok, take care brighteyes

[silvercebo]

alrite, u kno im strange sumtimes ;) hope ur hangover will go away quickly... I'm alrite, hope ur okay too, take care gorgeous