why do I always fall for guys I can't reach? fuck em all!

need time for myself. going off in mirc, msn and icq... not on the board either. much trouble with my work... oh fuck it all. "good" night!

today is an okay day I guess...I got money...I got lots of money (well compared to the money I usually get) and I finally could buy a 80GB harddisk for my muse stuff...my old one is full of shit (no I DON'T talk about the muse stuff)... and I had to go to this office and I have to go working from 8. august... I have to care about old people...but ( Read more... )

again a day of doing nothing but chatting *sigh* I miss fred...

I'm pretty tired and a bit depressed but it's okay I guess...I dunno I don't sleep well the last few days (yes days coz I use to stay awake at night and sleep at day lately) and I think I've got many problems at the moment...flat, "friends", money and stuff...but who cares...I don't

I feel horrible today, I have serious reason to think that manu betrayed me AGAIN. still not sure though, I didn't sleep, was up til eight this morning then I heard the thing about manu, then I got drunk and cut my arm...fuckin relapse! I puked the whole day and went shopping with my mum totally drunk... well... oh fuck all, that's all not worth it ( Read more... )

chatting with my girls right now...and talked the first time to a girl I met in the forum too...and god I feel so sorry for her, only 16 but such a worse life... If I could I'd fly to england, take her out of this shit and take her with me... she's such a lovely girl and doesn't deserve the whole shit!!! oh fuck if I see such sweet people suffering ( Read more... )

I dunno, I'm quite depressed today again and I don't know why...hate this feeling ( Read more... )

XFM POLL IS OVER AND MUSE ARE WINNER IN ALL CATEGORIES FOR THE BEST INDIE BAND...WOHOOO ( Read more... )

LOL I just found the version of feeling good, karla was talking about...

matt starts to laugh at the megaphon part... I had to laugh with him, that's too cute...

made some pics for my msn but I still can't decide which one I should take:


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didn't post here for ages...well nothing new happened...not really, I have to move coz my flat is too expensive...I'm still totally in love with muse... every day a bit more...and still shocked about what happened in london ( Read more... )