so i just totally went to the bar in my ugly ass fleece sweatpants and nobody noticed and/or cared. not only that, but i got hit on too, of course, while on my way to the restroom. only in buffalo...

i'm ok. it's ok. everything is ok because it was never not ok to begin with. i get upset but why there is no reason so no i am not upset. it pulls and i want to turn my back but then it pulls again and i give in. i'm not weak so i shouldn't do this and mostly i don't but then again sometimes i do so how do i stop. only i can make myself stop. and i ( Read more... )

there's a small spider that's been dangling on my computer screen for the past hour. i was hoping that it might just go away on it's own, but it won't move. however i feel bad killing it so i guess it's just going to stay there ( Read more... )

what a great/fun night. i mean, it had it's ups and downs, but overall it was really good. and sometimes you really gotta love being single and unattached.

what am i doing??? i'm pretty sure i know how this is going to end for the third time, so why can't i keep myself away?????

Does march 10th have any significance to anybody? i found a piece of paper on my desk with nothing but this date underlined like three times on it and i can't imagine what was important about it that i had to write it down. now i feel like there's something i was supposed to do or attend on march 10th and i don't know what it is ( Read more... )

kiwiberries are back at wegmans!

i don't know about any of you, but i know i'm very happy about this.

mmmm...kiwiberries

this is it....

who knows what will happen

i can't even describe how much better i feel right now. the amount of stress i've been under in the past week was unbelievable, worrying about this. i know i'm not totally in the clear yet, but it's looking good. so i can finally relax. finally. and if any good came out of this it's that it got me over tom, fast. seriously, moping around and being ( Read more... )

i wish i could go back. avoid the hurt altogether. what's the point if it was going to end like this. every day i've been getting better about it, but tonight it all came flooding back. i'm trying the best that i possibly can to get over him but i can't. every time i turn around there's another reminder which i can't ignore. i keep telling myself ( Read more... )