Running Up That Hill

[silverhawthorn]

This move is the biggest, most complicated, most difficult thing I’ve ever done. I feel a bone-deep desperation to finally build a life of my own, to finally - for the first time in my life - try to be an independent woman, and I’m afraid that I’m going to fail. This move feels like a last chance for me. This year is the tenth anniversary of my

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[theletterelle]

Here is the thing: people succeed everywhere. People live in New Jersey who have low-paying service jobs. People live in Orlando, in DC, LA, living on waiters' salaries, or janitors', or office temps'. They might have to live in ugly parts of town with roommates, but they are able to support themselves.

Have you determined a career path to follow?

[silverhawthorn]

I have; I'm transferring to a local branch of the store I currently work for, though I don't know which one yet and it's admittedly only a low-paying part-time position. I like what I do, though, and I'd like to make it full-time, if not with this company, then with another.

I've lived in dodgy parts of town before, lived on peanut butter and scraped up pennies for bus fare. I know how to do that, I know how it feels to live day-by-day. I've never moved to a place that had friends waiting for me, though, and I'm hoping the simple knowledge that I'm wanted will make a difference, and hoping that I can live up to that, too.

Thank you for reading. Knowing I wasn't just writing to myself is another thing that makes a difference, too. *hugs*

[theletterelle]

That's so great! You already have a job, that's huge! :D

And friends. Damn. I didn't realize how important they were until I moved away from them. Having family nearby is good too, but it's not the same. That's why I want to get back to DC, where all my close friends are.

[silverhawthorn]

Aw, thank you! Never thought I wouldn't be a Pacific NWer for life, you know? Glad I was, though - met some great people, and had some great adventures. :) *hugs*

[fuschia]

You'll make it. <3 I believe in you.

[silverhawthorn]

Thank you....and I'll do my best not to inflict you with too much of my personal brand of bat-crap craziness. :)

[misstottenham]

Of course you'll make it. Having friends there will make all the difference. It'll make it worth it. Good luck sweetie and have fun, enjoy the move, make life what you want it to be xx

[silverhawthorn]

You know that if it doesn't work out, I'll have no other recourse but to hop the pond...! (Just by way of fair warning! *grin*)

[misstottenham]

Anytime, you are more than welcome.