I have to be to work in less than 6 hours and no matter how hard I try I cant sleep. Tonight was such an awkward night and today was such a shitfest. I spent probably about 20 minutes max with Bethany tonight and those few minutes made my entire day worth existing ( Read more... )

I honestly think that nothing I do will matter to her. Is this all a waste of energy and a set up to a huge let down, or what?

and im a little pissed because they sent her the wrong flowers and it was erik shafts girlfriend that took my order at village green, what a stupid, stupid girl.....

The city by the lake.

1. What does your MySpace headline mean?: Its the name of Sufjans first album ( Read more... )

The time has come to work hard for what I want ( Read more... )

Work was a real drag this morning. The fact that I have to be back there in less then 2 hours is also a pretty big drag.

I miss not having to have a job.

I miss being loved.

I miss high school.

I miss kasey (RIP).

I miss Bethany.

I miss me.

I havent been feeling like this lately. I had been doing okay. I got myself off the fucking energy pills (which is becomming a problem again). My job is starting to finally bug me. Im sick of the useless kids that work in the back and dont do shit. Might as well just send them home since we pay them to accomplish things that we end of doing at the ( Read more... )

Im sick and tired of working all day every day. Its really making the band suffer.

Its all over in 3 months I just have to work work work and save save save.

This trying not to smoke weed thing is really starting to suck. It doesnt really matter though because tomorrow is a holiday and I will be able to smoke fat fat fat ( Read more... )

I dont like being around liars.