Not Again
Title : Not Again
Rating : G
Pairing : HaeHyuk / HyukHae
Disclaimer : Lee Hyukjae is mine! *delusional*
Summary : When Eunhyuk joined SJ-M and have to leave Sukira.
Warning : crap story! Just random story I made bzzzzt -,-
"Super Junior M is going to make a comeback soon."
That's what Eunhyuk heard a few months ago and it's enough to crash his world down. Everyday he lived his life like a living dead man. Some thought was haunting him non stop. He couldn't sleep. He couldn't smile. He's happy but sad enough to know SJ-M is comeback.
Everyday, he was crying in his sleep. He couldn't sleep peacefully. Nightmare always come to him. There's no sleep without his cry. A memories when he did a video call with certain someone while crying so hard a few years ago, made him shivered. He definitely didn't want to feel that feeling again. That memories haunted him in his sleep.
But that certain someone will always be by his side everytime the bad memories haunted him in his sleep. He'll hug the latter tightly and soothe him until the older stopped crying and sleep in peace. He even sing to Eunhyuk so that he'd have a peaceful sleep.
"I'm here. Don't worry..." Donghae whispered to Eunhyuk when Eunhyuk's forehead started to wrinkled and he's about to cry. He hugged Eunhyuk tightly and kissed his hair.
Then Eunhyuk relaxed.
•••
"How about you joining SJ-M?"
Eunhyuk widened his eyes at the question. He stared at his manager and ask, "what?"
"You heard it right. I asking you about what if you join SJ-M?" The manager asked again to clear it.
Eunhyuk's heart stopped beating. He's confused. Why on earth suddenly they asked him to join SJ-M? He even feel like he didn't had a good voice enough to join the sub-group. There's Ryeowook, Kyuhyun, Zhoumi, Siwon, Donghae who really have a wonderful voice and there's Henry too if they need a rapper. So why?
"Emmm... I don't get it." Eunhyuk finally said the words.
"Our representative just think that you have a great number of fans lately. You gained more fans these days, and your skill was improved. Maybe they think it's time for you to shine brighter than before. Don't you think?" The manager smiled to him and he leaned his back to the couch and crossed his arms in front of his chest while Eunhyuk sit in front of him clueless.
Eunhyuk going to say something but he shut his mouth again. He scratched his temple in confuse.
"Just think about it, ne?" The manager said again. "Sungmin already agreed to it."
Eunhyuk widened his eyes, "Sungmin too?"
The manager nodded. He stood up, "maybe it's just a marketing strategy from our company to keep you shining. But, if you agree, you'll leave your activity in Korea. It's up to you wheter you want to join or not. Really. Think about it." He smiled then leave the room.
Eunhyuk confused.
•••
Donghae welcomed him with a wide grin on his face. But Eunhyuk didn't even smile to him. He just sit on the edge of his bed and rubbed his temple lightly.
"What's wrong?" Donghae asked.
"They asked me to join Super Junior M." Eunhyuk answered simply.
Donghae's grin become wider, "Really?! Seriously?!" He looked at Eunhyuk excitedly. He sit beside Eunhyuk and shook his shoulder, "then you'll join us to China?"
"Not yet."
Donghae's smile gone.
"Why?"
"I haven't agree to it yet."
Donghae widened his eyes, "what?! Why?!"
Eunhyuk sighed heavily, "I don't know. I'm confused. It will be so hard to learn everything all over again. Besides, I have a strong heart, Sukira, and other activities in Korea. I can't just leave them just like that, can I?" He said sadly to Donghae.
He looked at Donghae and got surprised when he found Donghae's eyes full of tears.
"You don't know how hard it is." Donghae said with a shaky voice. "It's so hard to convince them that you capable enough for join SJ-M too. I did my best and they agreed. But now... You..."
Donghae's tears started to falling down non-stop and he sobbing so hard.
"What? So... It's you? You're the one... Who did this?" Eunhyuk asked with his mouth wide opened. He's surprised to know this. "H-how.. How could you... I think it's because of my skill..."
"No! I just helped them to notice what you've got! I helped them to notice that you capable enough to join!" Donghae explained it in the middle of his cry. He wiped his tears and keep sobbing, "I just really want you to join..."
Eunhyuk's heart beating faster. He's flustered.
"Hae..." Eunhyuk move closer and wipe Donghae's tears with his finger. "Thank you. But why?"
Donghae's cry become louder. He hugged Eunhyuk's waist and buried his face on his chest, "you stupid! Do you think that I don't know you are suffering these days because you know I'll be away for a long time? I'm suffering too, Hyukjae! I don't want to be away from you! Not again!" Donghae cried out loud and tighten his hug on Eunhyuk's waist.
Eunhyuk's mind goes blank. So that's why.
Eunhyuk sighed heavily and his hands slowly raised to caressed Donghae's hair softly.
"Hae..." He called in a low voice.
"Hyuk... It's the only way out from our misery. We have to be in SJ-M together. So we'll never be apart for a long time again!" Donghae keep sobbing so hard and it makes Eunhyuk speechless. Now his shirt is wet because of his tears.
"Hae... But it's selfish..." Eunhyuk said in a low voice.
"No, it's not!" Donghae looked up to see him and cried out.
"It is, Donghae." Eunhyuk said again. He pulled away from Donghae and hold Donghae's shoulder. He looked at Donghae seriously. "What do you think about Eeteuk hyung? I have Sukira with him. If I go, I have to leave it, it means I have to leave Eeteuk hyung do it alone. The listeners will sad too, I have to leave 'em just so that I'll be with you, just for my own happiness."
"What's wrong with pursuing your own happiness? You have the rights to do!" Donghae shouted at him and his tears keep falling down his cheek.
"I have a responsibility here, Hae.."
"No, you did enough! Now it's time for you to happy! Don't you happy to be more popular? Don't you happy if you have more part to sing?" Donghae asked with a loud voice. But it turned to be low when he asked, "don't you happy... To be with me?" Donghae blink a tears.
Eunhyuk sighed and looked down to his lap. His hands fall from Donghae's shoulder. Donghae keep crying and sobbing so hard. He tried to wipe it but another tears rolled down on his face.
His hands move to hold Eunhyuk's hand. He squeezed it, "think about it, Hyuk. Please. I beg you."
Then he's having the biggest dilemma in his lifetime.
•••
He never imagined it before, he's a DJ for 5 years and now he's going to leave it all behind for just one person. Donghae.
If there's a question, why on earth he agree to join SJ-M and leave everything he had in Korea, the answer will always be the same. Just for one person. Donghae. He didn't want to feel that feeling again. The feeling that made him cry every night because he missed Donghae so fucking much. He didn't want it again. No more.
So he already decided. He'll join SJ-M.
Maybe there's always one thing to let go to achieve something better. He really hope everything will be alright.
He takes a deep breath and trying to smile. It's the last day of him to be Sukira's DJ. He'll be back later though. This farewell is not forever.
He started to DJ-ing and talked much like usual. He didn't even forget to smile and made a joke like he used to. He was sing his song "One Love" and some song for his listeners. He just want to make his listeners happy. But the listeners indeed not really happy with this farewell. In fact they are sad.
"What should I do if I miss you, Hyukjae?" The listeners asked.
Hyukjae tried his best to show his gummy smile. He laughed and made a joke, "don't love me too much. It's impossible, dear."
Because my heart will always be his..., Eunhyuk smile.
When it comes to the end of the broadcast, it's time for him to bid his goodbye.
"Will we see our Hyukjae's tears tonight?" Eeteuk was joking and Eunhyuk laughed to hear that.
"No." Eunhyuk answered. "I won't cry."
"Really? It looks like you're about to cry." Eeteuk said with a small laugh.
Eunhyuk laughed again and started to bid his goodbye, "well, it's really nice to be in Sukira. I'm not good enough to talk but I had the chance to be a DJ for 5 years. It's really great. I'm so thankful." He said with a small smile on his lips. He tried so hard to hold his tears. "I know my decision is selfish... But, I hope you guys respect my decision. I'll be thinking about Sukira all day while I promoting in China, and I'll do my best when I'm in China."
His voice started to shaking, "thanks for listening to my voice every night..." He laughed a bit because he feels like crying now. He promised not to cry, but being a crybaby he is, it's so hard. His eyes started to get warmer. "Thanks a-all... Emmm... Sorry..." He apologized because he couldn't talk anymore. The tears started to fall. He never imagined he'll stop be a DJ. He loves this job so much because he can talk as much as he wants.
"I know Sukira is really important for Eunhyuk.. When he comeback, I'll leave with my pleasure.." Yesung, who's the one will replace him to be a DJ said.
It makes Eunhyuk cry even harder, "Sorry, and Thank you." Then Eunhyuk put his head at the table to hide his face and burst into tears. Eeteuk patted his back to soothe him. Some stuff hug him too but he keep hiding his face and cry harder.
A woman comes to him and hug him. She whispered to him, "there's someone outside. Maybe you want to meet him."
Eunhyuk just wiped his tears and nodded. When he knows the camera is off, he looked up and stood up. His eyes red and swollen because of the tears. Some of the fans out there crying too and it makes him sad too. He waves at them and smile.
Then he walked out of the broadcast room only to find the brunette boy is waiting for him with a smile.
Eunhyuk smile, but tears keep falling from his cheek. He move closer to the boy. Donghae touched his cheek and wipe the tears lightly. Eunhyuk smiled.
Donghae pulled him into a tight hug and Eunhyuk cried again on his chest. Donghae caressed Eunhyuk's hair and smile.
"I guess it's time for you to shine, Hyukjae..."
•••
A/N: Join Super Junior M, even have solo part in SS3 now. Guess it's time for him to shine brighter. I'm so proud of my Lee Hyukjae :')
Rating : G
Pairing : HaeHyuk / HyukHae
Disclaimer : Lee Hyukjae is mine! *delusional*
Summary : When Eunhyuk joined SJ-M and have to leave Sukira.
Warning : crap story! Just random story I made bzzzzt -,-
"Super Junior M is going to make a comeback soon."
That's what Eunhyuk heard a few months ago and it's enough to crash his world down. Everyday he lived his life like a living dead man. Some thought was haunting him non stop. He couldn't sleep. He couldn't smile. He's happy but sad enough to know SJ-M is comeback.
Everyday, he was crying in his sleep. He couldn't sleep peacefully. Nightmare always come to him. There's no sleep without his cry. A memories when he did a video call with certain someone while crying so hard a few years ago, made him shivered. He definitely didn't want to feel that feeling again. That memories haunted him in his sleep.
But that certain someone will always be by his side everytime the bad memories haunted him in his sleep. He'll hug the latter tightly and soothe him until the older stopped crying and sleep in peace. He even sing to Eunhyuk so that he'd have a peaceful sleep.
"I'm here. Don't worry..." Donghae whispered to Eunhyuk when Eunhyuk's forehead started to wrinkled and he's about to cry. He hugged Eunhyuk tightly and kissed his hair.
Then Eunhyuk relaxed.
•••
"How about you joining SJ-M?"
Eunhyuk widened his eyes at the question. He stared at his manager and ask, "what?"
"You heard it right. I asking you about what if you join SJ-M?" The manager asked again to clear it.
Eunhyuk's heart stopped beating. He's confused. Why on earth suddenly they asked him to join SJ-M? He even feel like he didn't had a good voice enough to join the sub-group. There's Ryeowook, Kyuhyun, Zhoumi, Siwon, Donghae who really have a wonderful voice and there's Henry too if they need a rapper. So why?
"Emmm... I don't get it." Eunhyuk finally said the words.
"Our representative just think that you have a great number of fans lately. You gained more fans these days, and your skill was improved. Maybe they think it's time for you to shine brighter than before. Don't you think?" The manager smiled to him and he leaned his back to the couch and crossed his arms in front of his chest while Eunhyuk sit in front of him clueless.
Eunhyuk going to say something but he shut his mouth again. He scratched his temple in confuse.
"Just think about it, ne?" The manager said again. "Sungmin already agreed to it."
Eunhyuk widened his eyes, "Sungmin too?"
The manager nodded. He stood up, "maybe it's just a marketing strategy from our company to keep you shining. But, if you agree, you'll leave your activity in Korea. It's up to you wheter you want to join or not. Really. Think about it." He smiled then leave the room.
Eunhyuk confused.
•••
Donghae welcomed him with a wide grin on his face. But Eunhyuk didn't even smile to him. He just sit on the edge of his bed and rubbed his temple lightly.
"What's wrong?" Donghae asked.
"They asked me to join Super Junior M." Eunhyuk answered simply.
Donghae's grin become wider, "Really?! Seriously?!" He looked at Eunhyuk excitedly. He sit beside Eunhyuk and shook his shoulder, "then you'll join us to China?"
"Not yet."
Donghae's smile gone.
"Why?"
"I haven't agree to it yet."
Donghae widened his eyes, "what?! Why?!"
Eunhyuk sighed heavily, "I don't know. I'm confused. It will be so hard to learn everything all over again. Besides, I have a strong heart, Sukira, and other activities in Korea. I can't just leave them just like that, can I?" He said sadly to Donghae.
He looked at Donghae and got surprised when he found Donghae's eyes full of tears.
"You don't know how hard it is." Donghae said with a shaky voice. "It's so hard to convince them that you capable enough for join SJ-M too. I did my best and they agreed. But now... You..."
Donghae's tears started to falling down non-stop and he sobbing so hard.
"What? So... It's you? You're the one... Who did this?" Eunhyuk asked with his mouth wide opened. He's surprised to know this. "H-how.. How could you... I think it's because of my skill..."
"No! I just helped them to notice what you've got! I helped them to notice that you capable enough to join!" Donghae explained it in the middle of his cry. He wiped his tears and keep sobbing, "I just really want you to join..."
Eunhyuk's heart beating faster. He's flustered.
"Hae..." Eunhyuk move closer and wipe Donghae's tears with his finger. "Thank you. But why?"
Donghae's cry become louder. He hugged Eunhyuk's waist and buried his face on his chest, "you stupid! Do you think that I don't know you are suffering these days because you know I'll be away for a long time? I'm suffering too, Hyukjae! I don't want to be away from you! Not again!" Donghae cried out loud and tighten his hug on Eunhyuk's waist.
Eunhyuk's mind goes blank. So that's why.
Eunhyuk sighed heavily and his hands slowly raised to caressed Donghae's hair softly.
"Hae..." He called in a low voice.
"Hyuk... It's the only way out from our misery. We have to be in SJ-M together. So we'll never be apart for a long time again!" Donghae keep sobbing so hard and it makes Eunhyuk speechless. Now his shirt is wet because of his tears.
"Hae... But it's selfish..." Eunhyuk said in a low voice.
"No, it's not!" Donghae looked up to see him and cried out.
"It is, Donghae." Eunhyuk said again. He pulled away from Donghae and hold Donghae's shoulder. He looked at Donghae seriously. "What do you think about Eeteuk hyung? I have Sukira with him. If I go, I have to leave it, it means I have to leave Eeteuk hyung do it alone. The listeners will sad too, I have to leave 'em just so that I'll be with you, just for my own happiness."
"What's wrong with pursuing your own happiness? You have the rights to do!" Donghae shouted at him and his tears keep falling down his cheek.
"I have a responsibility here, Hae.."
"No, you did enough! Now it's time for you to happy! Don't you happy to be more popular? Don't you happy if you have more part to sing?" Donghae asked with a loud voice. But it turned to be low when he asked, "don't you happy... To be with me?" Donghae blink a tears.
Eunhyuk sighed and looked down to his lap. His hands fall from Donghae's shoulder. Donghae keep crying and sobbing so hard. He tried to wipe it but another tears rolled down on his face.
His hands move to hold Eunhyuk's hand. He squeezed it, "think about it, Hyuk. Please. I beg you."
Then he's having the biggest dilemma in his lifetime.
•••
He never imagined it before, he's a DJ for 5 years and now he's going to leave it all behind for just one person. Donghae.
If there's a question, why on earth he agree to join SJ-M and leave everything he had in Korea, the answer will always be the same. Just for one person. Donghae. He didn't want to feel that feeling again. The feeling that made him cry every night because he missed Donghae so fucking much. He didn't want it again. No more.
So he already decided. He'll join SJ-M.
Maybe there's always one thing to let go to achieve something better. He really hope everything will be alright.
He takes a deep breath and trying to smile. It's the last day of him to be Sukira's DJ. He'll be back later though. This farewell is not forever.
He started to DJ-ing and talked much like usual. He didn't even forget to smile and made a joke like he used to. He was sing his song "One Love" and some song for his listeners. He just want to make his listeners happy. But the listeners indeed not really happy with this farewell. In fact they are sad.
"What should I do if I miss you, Hyukjae?" The listeners asked.
Hyukjae tried his best to show his gummy smile. He laughed and made a joke, "don't love me too much. It's impossible, dear."
Because my heart will always be his..., Eunhyuk smile.
When it comes to the end of the broadcast, it's time for him to bid his goodbye.
"Will we see our Hyukjae's tears tonight?" Eeteuk was joking and Eunhyuk laughed to hear that.
"No." Eunhyuk answered. "I won't cry."
"Really? It looks like you're about to cry." Eeteuk said with a small laugh.
Eunhyuk laughed again and started to bid his goodbye, "well, it's really nice to be in Sukira. I'm not good enough to talk but I had the chance to be a DJ for 5 years. It's really great. I'm so thankful." He said with a small smile on his lips. He tried so hard to hold his tears. "I know my decision is selfish... But, I hope you guys respect my decision. I'll be thinking about Sukira all day while I promoting in China, and I'll do my best when I'm in China."
His voice started to shaking, "thanks for listening to my voice every night..." He laughed a bit because he feels like crying now. He promised not to cry, but being a crybaby he is, it's so hard. His eyes started to get warmer. "Thanks a-all... Emmm... Sorry..." He apologized because he couldn't talk anymore. The tears started to fall. He never imagined he'll stop be a DJ. He loves this job so much because he can talk as much as he wants.
"I know Sukira is really important for Eunhyuk.. When he comeback, I'll leave with my pleasure.." Yesung, who's the one will replace him to be a DJ said.
It makes Eunhyuk cry even harder, "Sorry, and Thank you." Then Eunhyuk put his head at the table to hide his face and burst into tears. Eeteuk patted his back to soothe him. Some stuff hug him too but he keep hiding his face and cry harder.
A woman comes to him and hug him. She whispered to him, "there's someone outside. Maybe you want to meet him."
Eunhyuk just wiped his tears and nodded. When he knows the camera is off, he looked up and stood up. His eyes red and swollen because of the tears. Some of the fans out there crying too and it makes him sad too. He waves at them and smile.
Then he walked out of the broadcast room only to find the brunette boy is waiting for him with a smile.
Eunhyuk smile, but tears keep falling from his cheek. He move closer to the boy. Donghae touched his cheek and wipe the tears lightly. Eunhyuk smiled.
Donghae pulled him into a tight hug and Eunhyuk cried again on his chest. Donghae caressed Eunhyuk's hair and smile.
"I guess it's time for you to shine, Hyukjae..."
•••
A/N: Join Super Junior M, even have solo part in SS3 now. Guess it's time for him to shine brighter. I'm so proud of my Lee Hyukjae :')