Scared [part 1]
Title: Scared
Rating: NC-17
length: [one-shot]
Pairing: Hyukhae
Summary: Hyukjae and Donghae was really in love and a very happy couple before suddenly Hyukjae pulled himself away from Donghae and treated him like a shit.
Donghae has been always fall in love with his schoolmate, Lee Hyukjae. He couldn't even forget his beautiful smile, his sharp jawline, how beautiful everytime he laughs and every other things he does. He's the epitome of beauty. But don't get it wrong, he's so manly as well. Donghae couldn't forget how strong those arms when it wrapped around his body. Donghae once fell in front of Hyukjae and Hyukjae immediately came to rescue by catching him. Since that time, Donghae couldn't forget Hyukjae. He wants to be with Hyukjae so badly.
It's such a relief when Donghae tried to made a move and Hyukjae gave a positive respond. Donghae tried to had a conversation with him when they met and Hyukjae was really nice to him. Donghae once packed a lunch for Hyukjae and Hyukjae accepted it happily. He said thanks to Donghae and Donghae saw Hyukjae ate it on his table when he had lunch with his friends. Donghae couldn't help but really happy.
After 3 months being so close with each other, Hyukjae brought Donghae to his home. He showed his dance skill and Donghae was captivated by his dance move. Hyukjae was amazing. Donghae dropped his jaw and he clapped his hands like a fangirl when Hyukjae finished. He's squealing like a fangirl, made Hyukjae laughed shyly. Then suddenly Hyukjae sat in front of Donghae and kissed Donghae's lips sweetly. That time, Donghae felt like the world stopped spinning and his heart fell to his stomach. Hyukjae kissed him.
When Hyukjae pulled away, he asked Donghae if he wanted to be his boyfriend. Donghae was so speechless at first, but of course he accepted it in the end.
They were so happy together, like no one could ever ruin or separate them. They're so in love with each other.
But everything changed after their first night. They were at Hyukjae's room being lovey dovey like always when suddenly Hyukjae lost his self-control and kissed Donghae passionately lead them to having their first sex.
Donghae woke up and found Hyukjae was not beside him. He found Hyukjae stood on the balcony of his room, he was smoking. Donghae frowned and confused because Hyukjae knows it too well that Donghae hates it when Hyukjae smoke. He get dressed and approach Hyukjae on the balcony then asked him why he smoke. Hyukjae threw the cigarette and looked at Donghae coldly. He mumbled a sorry and walked back inside the room leaving Donghae dumbfounded by his atittude.
Since that day, the cold Hyukjae continued. He treats Donghae so coldly and he's being ignorance. Donghae couldn't help but wondering what exactly happened with his boyfriend. A lot of bad thoughts came to his mind and made him cry. But he trusts Hyukjae so he holds on.
Donghae walked to approach Hyukjae who's talking with his friends. He smiled and bowed to his friends friendly and his friends smiled and bowed back. His friends said bye to him and Hyukjae before finally left them alone.
Hyukjae looked at Donghae coldly like usual, "what?"
Donghae narrowed his eyes at the rude question, he wanted to throw a shit to him but he holds up. He sighed and smiled, "are you going to drive me home today?"
Hyukjae looked away and said, "no. I'm really busy." He pick his cellphone out of his pocket and check it.
Donghae sighed and smiled again, "okay... I just kinda miss you. It's been a long time since the last time you drove me home." Donghae said sadly hoping Hyukjae could be nice to him again but Hyukjae acted like he didn't care. Donghae bit his lips to prevent him cry, "okay. See you."
Then Donghae turned around and leave Hyukjae. He walked away slowly and sadly. He's hoping that Hyukjae would call him and hug him but it didn't happened. He turned around to see if Hyukjae was still there. But it surprised him when he found Hyukjae was already walked to the opposite way like he didn't even care about Donghae at all.
Donghae bit his lips again and decided to ignore the pain.
It's been a month since their first night and Hyukjae being a coldshit towards him. Donghae started to getting sad like hell and couldn't ignore the pain anymore. Hyukjae was too cold and always ignore him. When they're having their 3rd months anniversary, Hyukjae ignored him like shit. They're having a nice dinner at Donghae's home, but Hyukjae was busy with his cellphone.
"Could you please turn the cellphone off?" Donghae asked to Hyukjae while putting the food on Hyukjae's plate.
"No. It's important." Hyukjae said without looking away from his cellphone.
"How important? We're having a dinner here, Hyukkie." Donghae tried to be sweet as always and not angry. Not to mention Hyukjae always gave up everytime Donghae called him 'Hyukkie'. He used to be like that.
But he didn't now.
"Don't call me Hyukkie. It's disgusting." Hyukjae answered while still checking the phone.
"Oh, why? You used to like it. You even stopped calling me 'Hae'. I'm wondering what's wrong." Donghae still trying to be cool even he really wanted to cry so badly.
"Nothing is wrong." Hyukjae finally put his cellphone down and started to eat.
"Good, Hyukkie." Donghae smiled to him and Hyukjae looked up angrily.
"I said don't call me Hyukkie."
"But nothing is wrong, right?"
Hyukjae threw his chopstick and glared at Donghae, "what's your problem?!" He asked angrily to Donghae.
Donghae was shocked to see Hyukjae angry like that. He should be the one who angry, not Hyukjae.
"What? It should be me who ask that question. What's your problem, Hyukjae?" Donghae couldn't help but started to cry. His eyes started to get teary. "You ignored me! You don't care about me anymore! You're so cold to me! Don't you love me anymore?" Donghae's tears fell on his cheek and Hyukjae looked away.
"Look at me, Hyukjae! Do you still love me?!" Donghae shouted to him as his tears couldn't stop falling.
Hyukjae just remained silent and dont even look at him. Hyukjae suddenly stood up and said, "I'm leaving. You're not in the right mind."
Donghae dropped his jaw and cried out loud, "you're the one who not in the right mind! Do you forget your promise to love me forever and not hurting me whatever happened?! It's bullshit! You hurt me so much these days. You ignored me like I'm a shit, Hyukjae. What's my fault? Tell me! I can fix it! Just don't ignore me!" Donghae stood up as well and couldn't stop crying. He's too sad and angry.
Hyukjae sighed heavily and ruffled his hair frustratedly. His back facing Donghae.
Donghae suddenly chuckled, "oh... Maybe I was right... It's about that night..." Donghae's tears fell again while he's chuckling bitterly. Hyukjae tensed. "It's about our first night, right? You only want my body but I didn't satisfied you. Am I right?"
Hyukjae turned around and looked at him in disbelief.
"You disappointed, right?" Donghae asked again while chuckling. He wiped his tears slowly while keep looking at Hyukjae.
"Are you crazy? You lost your mind, don't you?" Hyukjae asked in disbelief.
Donghae laughed bitterly then he walked closer to Hyukjae, "yes, I lost my mind because of you!!!" Donghae snapped at him. "I can try again to please you!!! But just don't ignore me!" Donghae grabbed Hyukjae's shirt and clenched it tightly.
Hyukjae still remained silent and looking at his boyfriend in disbelief while Donghae couldn't stop crying.
"Let's have sex again, okay?" Donghae started to unbutton his shirt and getting undressed like he lost his mind.
Hyukjae dropped his jaw and immediately hold Donghae's hands, "stop it!!" Hyukjae shouted at him but Donghae keep doing what he's doing. "I said stop!" Hyukjae slapped Donghae's cheek until he fell to the floor and finally Donghae stopped what he's doing.
"You're crazy!" Hyukjae snapped at him and glared at him.
Donghae still crying like a mess while Hyukjae just shook his head and walked out of Donghae's room. He left Donghae who still crying on the floor. He curled into a ball and kept crying.
That night was the worst night ever. Donghae couldn't forget how hurt Hyukjae's slap was. He was hurting so badly. He went to school with a really puffy eyes made his friends asked what's wrong. But Donghae would answer a simply "nothing." With a smile.
When it's a break time, he was looking for Hyukjae to talk. He found him talking to their junior, not to mention it's a girl. He looked so happy, laughing and joking happily. He approached them and the girl realized Donghae's presence while Hyukjae didn't. Hyukjae turned around and his smile disappeared.
"Oppa, I gotta go. Talk to you later, okay?" She said to him and waved before walked away.
Hyukjae looked at Donghae in pity before sighed heavily, "look at yourself. It's really pathetic."
"Are you happy that I'm suffering?" Donghae asked.
"See, you're talking non-sense again." Hyukjae threw his hands up and sighed heavily.
"I want to break up."
Hyukjae immediately looked at Donghae in shock and widened his eyes, "what?"
"I want to break up." Donghae said it again with a tears fell on his cheek.
"I'm not talking to you. You're not in the right mind." Hyukjae shook his head, turned around and started to walk away.
"I want to break up, Hyukjae!!!" Donghae started to scream because Hyukjae ignoring him and keep walking away. Hyukjae was just waving his hands as if saying "shut up, you're talking bullshit"
Everyone around them started to pay attention when Donghae couldn't stop screaming to Hyukjae that he wanted to break up but Hyukjae still walking away ignoring him. Donghae was crying there being the center of attention of the school. He crouched down on the floor and cried. He buried his face on his knees and cried before his best friend, Sungmin, found him and helped him to walk.
It was immediately being the hot issue at their school. Hyukjae refused to break up with Donghae. Everyday Donghae was like a living corpse. When it's a break time, Donghae just laid his head on the table and sleep. Didn't do anything else.
When the bell rang, he woke up and found Sungmin already sat beside him.
"You made up with Hyukjae already?" Sungmin asked with a smile.
Donghae frowned in confused and shook his head.
"Oh?" Sungmin looked surprised. "I saw him walked out of our class when I was walking towards our class. I thought you made up with him."
Donghae narrowed his eyes. What's Hyukjae doing here? He's sure it's only him at the class during the break time.
Donghae always go home with Sungmin after his big fight with Hyukjae. He didn't care where Hyukjae was, it hurts indeed to know that Hyukjae doesn't care as well but he tried not to care and ignore the pain.
Once, Donghae was having a nice talk with his old friend who just transferred into his school. They're having a great reunion in canteen. They're talking and hugging because they missed each other so much when suddenly a hands yanked Donghae's arms and dragged him away from his friend harshly.
Suddenly he's already at the school corridor which no one passing by and there's only him and Hyukjae.
"You're so rude!" Donghae pushed Hyukjae's body harshly and he's so angry right now.
"What were you doing with him there, I'm asking you? You're my boyfriend yet you hugged other man like a bitch!"
SLAP!
Donghae slapped Hyukjae's cheek hardly and Hyukjae stopped talking. He was looking at Donghae in shock.
"Watch your mouth! I'm a bitch only in your eyes, right? I always a bitch for you!" Donghae snapped at him with tears falling on his cheek. Again and again Hyukjae made him cry. "I was never more than a bitch for you, right?!"
Hyukjae was going to retort back but Donghae already pushed and punched his chest again while crying so loudly, "I want to break up! I want to break up! Fvck you, I want to break up! Leave me alone!!!" He lost himself and kept punching Hyukjae.
Hyukjae caught Donghae's hands and stop him, "okay. We break up. Happy now?" Hyukjae threw Donghae's hands harshly and left him.
Donghae crouched down and cried loudly. His heart hurts so bad. He was nothing more than a whore for Hyukjae. It hurts so badly. It also hurts so much to know that he's still love Hyukjae no matter what. It hurts.
Donghae tried to get over his break up with Hyukjae but he couldn't. Loving Hyukjae is everything. Hyukjae is everything for him. But he knows that being with him just hurts him more. He tried to accept the fact that Hyukjae didn't love him anymore but it's too painful. He couldn't get over their break up.
Every night Donghae would cry in his sleep, calling for Hyukjae, until his sister came and calm him down. His family knows about him and Hyukjae, they're so supportive and helped him to forget Hyukjae. They cheered Donghae up everytime Donghae sad. But everything is not enough as long as he's still apart with Hyukjae. He wants to back together with Hyukjae but he knows that it's silly and impossible. Hyukjae hates him.
At school, he never meet Hyukjae. Seems like the two of them avoided each other. So Donghae spent his time with Sungmin and Siwon every break time at canteen. It's amazing though, he never meet Hyukjae even once at canteen.
Donghae was lining to order the food when suddenly he heard two girls talking not so far from him.
"Hyukjae oppa is sick?" The first girl asked.
"Yeah, Hyoyeon told me." The tall girl which is the one he found talking with Hyukjae a few days ago said. Donghae couldn't help but eavesdropping because they mentioned Hyukjae's sister which must be a reliable source.
"How's the condition?" The first girl asked again.
"I don't know. Hyo just told me that Hyukjae oppa didn't want to eat. He just locked himself up in his room and refused to eat. Then 2 days ago she found Hyukjae oppa fainted in the bathroom." The tall girl explained and Donghae couldn't help but got a goosebumps because of the story.
"Oh my God, that's horrible." The first girl sounds surprised. "Don't you think... It's because of him?" The first girl lower her voice.
"I don't know. Maybe yes, maybe not." The tall girl answered.
Donghae knows they're talking about him. Donghae started to get panic and uneasy. He's worried.
Donghae decided to walked out of the line and looking for Hyoyeon instead. He found her at her class working on her homework.
He sat in front of her and she was a little bit surprised.
"Tell me what happened with Hyukjae?" Donghae asked immediately.
Hyoyeon looked at Donghae for a second before back to her homework, "you still care?"
"Hyo, you know I love your brother so much. He's the one who didn't love me." Donghae said to Hyoyeon and his eyes showing her a great worry.
Hyoyeon sighed heavily and looked at Donghae, "he's okay now. He's getting better." Donghae sighed in relief. "But he still refuse to talk."
"What?" Donghae didn't understand.
"I think he couldn't get over the break up." Hyoyeon said sadly and Donghae widened his eyes in disbelief.
"Why couldn't he? He's the one-"
"You're the one who wants to break up. Not my brother." Hyoyeon cuts him off and Donghae looked really confused.
"Yes, but he didn't love me!"
"You assumed it. You don't know he's crying so hard after you guys broke up." Donghae dropped his jaw and Hyoyeon sighed again.
"I'm here not to hear a bullshit and lie, Hyoyeon." Donghae choose not to believe Hyukjae's little sister. It's impossible Hyukjae was crying over their break up, right?
"I'm telling the truth. It's your choice to believe me or not." Hyoyeon just shrugged her shoulder and back to her homework.
Donghae kept thinking if Hyoyeon telling the truth or not. It's hard to believe that Hyukjae cried over their break-up. Hyukjae had been ignored him when they're still together, why would he cry over their break up?
"You should visit him, oppa." Hyoyeon suggested.
"What? No. He would angry." Donghae shook his head.
"No, oppa. He will be happy. Just come, okay?" Hyoyeon said to him and Donghae finally thinks that maybe it's a good idea.
"Okay." Donghae nodded and Hyoyeon smiled to him.
Donghae finally decided to visit Hyukjae at his house after school. He asked Siwon to accompany him because it was too lonely to go alone.
When he reached the house, Hyoyeon was already there and she smiled to Donghae. Hyoyeon told him to just go to Hyukjae's room right away.
Donghae knocked the door and opened it only to found Hyukjae was sitting on his bed while laughing together with the tall girl he met at canteen.
They turned around to looked at Donghae, and they were a little bit surprised.
"Donghae?" Donghae swore he could see Hyukjae was a little bit happy to see him. But when he came into his room and Siwon followed behind, he glared at Siwon and the happiness gone. "What are you doing here?"
"I'm here to visit you and make sure you're okay." Donghae answered with a small smile.
"Of course I'm okay. Why wouldn't I?" Hyukjae said coldly. "Sooyoung is here to take care of me."
Donghae felt his heart squeezed by invisible hands. Donghae looked at the tall girl named Sooyoung and she smiled awkwardly. She was going to stand up from the bed but Hyukjae held her hands and said, "stay here. It's okay."
Sooyoung was confused and awkward to be there. Donghae looked so sad to see Hyukjae held her hands and Sooyoung realized it, but Hyukjae ignored him.
"Uhm.. Okay, then. I think.. I should just go. You don't need me though..." Donghae said then fake a smile. He felt so stupid. Of course Hyukjae doesn't need him, what makes you think he does, Donghae? Donghae bit his lips and Hyukjae knows it too well that it means Donghae is holding his tears. Hyukjae looked away. "Thanks for take care of Hyukjae. Please keep taking care of him." Donghae said to Sooyoung and bowed to her.
"Pffft. Don't pretend like you care." Hyukjae suddenly said while looking away. Sooyoung widened his eyes at Hyukjae while Donghae was taken aback by the things he said.
"What's wrong with you?! I care about you a lot! You're the one who didn't care about me!" Donghae snapped at Hyukjae and tears started to visible on his eyes. "What's my fault, Hyuk, until you hate me so much?" He tried so hard to prevent his sobs to be heard. But tears fell on his cheeks already.
Siwon started to hugged Donghae's shoulder and patted his back to soothe him. Hyukjae glanced at the gesture and looked away again. He ignored Donghae's burst out.
Donghae ran out of Hyukjae's room and Siwon immediately followed him.
Sooyoung looked at Hyukjae in disbelief and sighed heavily, "babo."
That's the last straw. Donghae promised he will never ever communicate through anything anymore with Hyukjae. He was hurting enough, and Donghae thinks he couldn't handle it anymore. Whatever Hyukjae's problem is, he didn't care anymore.
When Hyukjae finally back to school, that's too bad he always meet Hyukjae in canteen. Their eyes always accidentally met for a few seconds before they looked away. This is really cruel because Donghae will never could forget Hyukjae while he always meet him and saw those lovable eyes everyday. Donghae still couldn't forget him and cried every night in his sleep.
Donghae often saw Hyukjae with Sooyoung. They're having fun together a lot. Hyukjae always trolled her and it makes Donghae jealous like hell.
While Hyukjae always saw Donghae with Siwon. Donghae spent his time with his old best friend a lot even though they're not a classmate.
PART 2
Rating: NC-17
length: [one-shot]
Pairing: Hyukhae
Summary: Hyukjae and Donghae was really in love and a very happy couple before suddenly Hyukjae pulled himself away from Donghae and treated him like a shit.
Donghae has been always fall in love with his schoolmate, Lee Hyukjae. He couldn't even forget his beautiful smile, his sharp jawline, how beautiful everytime he laughs and every other things he does. He's the epitome of beauty. But don't get it wrong, he's so manly as well. Donghae couldn't forget how strong those arms when it wrapped around his body. Donghae once fell in front of Hyukjae and Hyukjae immediately came to rescue by catching him. Since that time, Donghae couldn't forget Hyukjae. He wants to be with Hyukjae so badly.
It's such a relief when Donghae tried to made a move and Hyukjae gave a positive respond. Donghae tried to had a conversation with him when they met and Hyukjae was really nice to him. Donghae once packed a lunch for Hyukjae and Hyukjae accepted it happily. He said thanks to Donghae and Donghae saw Hyukjae ate it on his table when he had lunch with his friends. Donghae couldn't help but really happy.
After 3 months being so close with each other, Hyukjae brought Donghae to his home. He showed his dance skill and Donghae was captivated by his dance move. Hyukjae was amazing. Donghae dropped his jaw and he clapped his hands like a fangirl when Hyukjae finished. He's squealing like a fangirl, made Hyukjae laughed shyly. Then suddenly Hyukjae sat in front of Donghae and kissed Donghae's lips sweetly. That time, Donghae felt like the world stopped spinning and his heart fell to his stomach. Hyukjae kissed him.
When Hyukjae pulled away, he asked Donghae if he wanted to be his boyfriend. Donghae was so speechless at first, but of course he accepted it in the end.
They were so happy together, like no one could ever ruin or separate them. They're so in love with each other.
But everything changed after their first night. They were at Hyukjae's room being lovey dovey like always when suddenly Hyukjae lost his self-control and kissed Donghae passionately lead them to having their first sex.
Donghae woke up and found Hyukjae was not beside him. He found Hyukjae stood on the balcony of his room, he was smoking. Donghae frowned and confused because Hyukjae knows it too well that Donghae hates it when Hyukjae smoke. He get dressed and approach Hyukjae on the balcony then asked him why he smoke. Hyukjae threw the cigarette and looked at Donghae coldly. He mumbled a sorry and walked back inside the room leaving Donghae dumbfounded by his atittude.
Since that day, the cold Hyukjae continued. He treats Donghae so coldly and he's being ignorance. Donghae couldn't help but wondering what exactly happened with his boyfriend. A lot of bad thoughts came to his mind and made him cry. But he trusts Hyukjae so he holds on.
Donghae walked to approach Hyukjae who's talking with his friends. He smiled and bowed to his friends friendly and his friends smiled and bowed back. His friends said bye to him and Hyukjae before finally left them alone.
Hyukjae looked at Donghae coldly like usual, "what?"
Donghae narrowed his eyes at the rude question, he wanted to throw a shit to him but he holds up. He sighed and smiled, "are you going to drive me home today?"
Hyukjae looked away and said, "no. I'm really busy." He pick his cellphone out of his pocket and check it.
Donghae sighed and smiled again, "okay... I just kinda miss you. It's been a long time since the last time you drove me home." Donghae said sadly hoping Hyukjae could be nice to him again but Hyukjae acted like he didn't care. Donghae bit his lips to prevent him cry, "okay. See you."
Then Donghae turned around and leave Hyukjae. He walked away slowly and sadly. He's hoping that Hyukjae would call him and hug him but it didn't happened. He turned around to see if Hyukjae was still there. But it surprised him when he found Hyukjae was already walked to the opposite way like he didn't even care about Donghae at all.
Donghae bit his lips again and decided to ignore the pain.
It's been a month since their first night and Hyukjae being a coldshit towards him. Donghae started to getting sad like hell and couldn't ignore the pain anymore. Hyukjae was too cold and always ignore him. When they're having their 3rd months anniversary, Hyukjae ignored him like shit. They're having a nice dinner at Donghae's home, but Hyukjae was busy with his cellphone.
"Could you please turn the cellphone off?" Donghae asked to Hyukjae while putting the food on Hyukjae's plate.
"No. It's important." Hyukjae said without looking away from his cellphone.
"How important? We're having a dinner here, Hyukkie." Donghae tried to be sweet as always and not angry. Not to mention Hyukjae always gave up everytime Donghae called him 'Hyukkie'. He used to be like that.
But he didn't now.
"Don't call me Hyukkie. It's disgusting." Hyukjae answered while still checking the phone.
"Oh, why? You used to like it. You even stopped calling me 'Hae'. I'm wondering what's wrong." Donghae still trying to be cool even he really wanted to cry so badly.
"Nothing is wrong." Hyukjae finally put his cellphone down and started to eat.
"Good, Hyukkie." Donghae smiled to him and Hyukjae looked up angrily.
"I said don't call me Hyukkie."
"But nothing is wrong, right?"
Hyukjae threw his chopstick and glared at Donghae, "what's your problem?!" He asked angrily to Donghae.
Donghae was shocked to see Hyukjae angry like that. He should be the one who angry, not Hyukjae.
"What? It should be me who ask that question. What's your problem, Hyukjae?" Donghae couldn't help but started to cry. His eyes started to get teary. "You ignored me! You don't care about me anymore! You're so cold to me! Don't you love me anymore?" Donghae's tears fell on his cheek and Hyukjae looked away.
"Look at me, Hyukjae! Do you still love me?!" Donghae shouted to him as his tears couldn't stop falling.
Hyukjae just remained silent and dont even look at him. Hyukjae suddenly stood up and said, "I'm leaving. You're not in the right mind."
Donghae dropped his jaw and cried out loud, "you're the one who not in the right mind! Do you forget your promise to love me forever and not hurting me whatever happened?! It's bullshit! You hurt me so much these days. You ignored me like I'm a shit, Hyukjae. What's my fault? Tell me! I can fix it! Just don't ignore me!" Donghae stood up as well and couldn't stop crying. He's too sad and angry.
Hyukjae sighed heavily and ruffled his hair frustratedly. His back facing Donghae.
Donghae suddenly chuckled, "oh... Maybe I was right... It's about that night..." Donghae's tears fell again while he's chuckling bitterly. Hyukjae tensed. "It's about our first night, right? You only want my body but I didn't satisfied you. Am I right?"
Hyukjae turned around and looked at him in disbelief.
"You disappointed, right?" Donghae asked again while chuckling. He wiped his tears slowly while keep looking at Hyukjae.
"Are you crazy? You lost your mind, don't you?" Hyukjae asked in disbelief.
Donghae laughed bitterly then he walked closer to Hyukjae, "yes, I lost my mind because of you!!!" Donghae snapped at him. "I can try again to please you!!! But just don't ignore me!" Donghae grabbed Hyukjae's shirt and clenched it tightly.
Hyukjae still remained silent and looking at his boyfriend in disbelief while Donghae couldn't stop crying.
"Let's have sex again, okay?" Donghae started to unbutton his shirt and getting undressed like he lost his mind.
Hyukjae dropped his jaw and immediately hold Donghae's hands, "stop it!!" Hyukjae shouted at him but Donghae keep doing what he's doing. "I said stop!" Hyukjae slapped Donghae's cheek until he fell to the floor and finally Donghae stopped what he's doing.
"You're crazy!" Hyukjae snapped at him and glared at him.
Donghae still crying like a mess while Hyukjae just shook his head and walked out of Donghae's room. He left Donghae who still crying on the floor. He curled into a ball and kept crying.
That night was the worst night ever. Donghae couldn't forget how hurt Hyukjae's slap was. He was hurting so badly. He went to school with a really puffy eyes made his friends asked what's wrong. But Donghae would answer a simply "nothing." With a smile.
When it's a break time, he was looking for Hyukjae to talk. He found him talking to their junior, not to mention it's a girl. He looked so happy, laughing and joking happily. He approached them and the girl realized Donghae's presence while Hyukjae didn't. Hyukjae turned around and his smile disappeared.
"Oppa, I gotta go. Talk to you later, okay?" She said to him and waved before walked away.
Hyukjae looked at Donghae in pity before sighed heavily, "look at yourself. It's really pathetic."
"Are you happy that I'm suffering?" Donghae asked.
"See, you're talking non-sense again." Hyukjae threw his hands up and sighed heavily.
"I want to break up."
Hyukjae immediately looked at Donghae in shock and widened his eyes, "what?"
"I want to break up." Donghae said it again with a tears fell on his cheek.
"I'm not talking to you. You're not in the right mind." Hyukjae shook his head, turned around and started to walk away.
"I want to break up, Hyukjae!!!" Donghae started to scream because Hyukjae ignoring him and keep walking away. Hyukjae was just waving his hands as if saying "shut up, you're talking bullshit"
Everyone around them started to pay attention when Donghae couldn't stop screaming to Hyukjae that he wanted to break up but Hyukjae still walking away ignoring him. Donghae was crying there being the center of attention of the school. He crouched down on the floor and cried. He buried his face on his knees and cried before his best friend, Sungmin, found him and helped him to walk.
It was immediately being the hot issue at their school. Hyukjae refused to break up with Donghae. Everyday Donghae was like a living corpse. When it's a break time, Donghae just laid his head on the table and sleep. Didn't do anything else.
When the bell rang, he woke up and found Sungmin already sat beside him.
"You made up with Hyukjae already?" Sungmin asked with a smile.
Donghae frowned in confused and shook his head.
"Oh?" Sungmin looked surprised. "I saw him walked out of our class when I was walking towards our class. I thought you made up with him."
Donghae narrowed his eyes. What's Hyukjae doing here? He's sure it's only him at the class during the break time.
Donghae always go home with Sungmin after his big fight with Hyukjae. He didn't care where Hyukjae was, it hurts indeed to know that Hyukjae doesn't care as well but he tried not to care and ignore the pain.
Once, Donghae was having a nice talk with his old friend who just transferred into his school. They're having a great reunion in canteen. They're talking and hugging because they missed each other so much when suddenly a hands yanked Donghae's arms and dragged him away from his friend harshly.
Suddenly he's already at the school corridor which no one passing by and there's only him and Hyukjae.
"You're so rude!" Donghae pushed Hyukjae's body harshly and he's so angry right now.
"What were you doing with him there, I'm asking you? You're my boyfriend yet you hugged other man like a bitch!"
SLAP!
Donghae slapped Hyukjae's cheek hardly and Hyukjae stopped talking. He was looking at Donghae in shock.
"Watch your mouth! I'm a bitch only in your eyes, right? I always a bitch for you!" Donghae snapped at him with tears falling on his cheek. Again and again Hyukjae made him cry. "I was never more than a bitch for you, right?!"
Hyukjae was going to retort back but Donghae already pushed and punched his chest again while crying so loudly, "I want to break up! I want to break up! Fvck you, I want to break up! Leave me alone!!!" He lost himself and kept punching Hyukjae.
Hyukjae caught Donghae's hands and stop him, "okay. We break up. Happy now?" Hyukjae threw Donghae's hands harshly and left him.
Donghae crouched down and cried loudly. His heart hurts so bad. He was nothing more than a whore for Hyukjae. It hurts so badly. It also hurts so much to know that he's still love Hyukjae no matter what. It hurts.
Donghae tried to get over his break up with Hyukjae but he couldn't. Loving Hyukjae is everything. Hyukjae is everything for him. But he knows that being with him just hurts him more. He tried to accept the fact that Hyukjae didn't love him anymore but it's too painful. He couldn't get over their break up.
Every night Donghae would cry in his sleep, calling for Hyukjae, until his sister came and calm him down. His family knows about him and Hyukjae, they're so supportive and helped him to forget Hyukjae. They cheered Donghae up everytime Donghae sad. But everything is not enough as long as he's still apart with Hyukjae. He wants to back together with Hyukjae but he knows that it's silly and impossible. Hyukjae hates him.
At school, he never meet Hyukjae. Seems like the two of them avoided each other. So Donghae spent his time with Sungmin and Siwon every break time at canteen. It's amazing though, he never meet Hyukjae even once at canteen.
Donghae was lining to order the food when suddenly he heard two girls talking not so far from him.
"Hyukjae oppa is sick?" The first girl asked.
"Yeah, Hyoyeon told me." The tall girl which is the one he found talking with Hyukjae a few days ago said. Donghae couldn't help but eavesdropping because they mentioned Hyukjae's sister which must be a reliable source.
"How's the condition?" The first girl asked again.
"I don't know. Hyo just told me that Hyukjae oppa didn't want to eat. He just locked himself up in his room and refused to eat. Then 2 days ago she found Hyukjae oppa fainted in the bathroom." The tall girl explained and Donghae couldn't help but got a goosebumps because of the story.
"Oh my God, that's horrible." The first girl sounds surprised. "Don't you think... It's because of him?" The first girl lower her voice.
"I don't know. Maybe yes, maybe not." The tall girl answered.
Donghae knows they're talking about him. Donghae started to get panic and uneasy. He's worried.
Donghae decided to walked out of the line and looking for Hyoyeon instead. He found her at her class working on her homework.
He sat in front of her and she was a little bit surprised.
"Tell me what happened with Hyukjae?" Donghae asked immediately.
Hyoyeon looked at Donghae for a second before back to her homework, "you still care?"
"Hyo, you know I love your brother so much. He's the one who didn't love me." Donghae said to Hyoyeon and his eyes showing her a great worry.
Hyoyeon sighed heavily and looked at Donghae, "he's okay now. He's getting better." Donghae sighed in relief. "But he still refuse to talk."
"What?" Donghae didn't understand.
"I think he couldn't get over the break up." Hyoyeon said sadly and Donghae widened his eyes in disbelief.
"Why couldn't he? He's the one-"
"You're the one who wants to break up. Not my brother." Hyoyeon cuts him off and Donghae looked really confused.
"Yes, but he didn't love me!"
"You assumed it. You don't know he's crying so hard after you guys broke up." Donghae dropped his jaw and Hyoyeon sighed again.
"I'm here not to hear a bullshit and lie, Hyoyeon." Donghae choose not to believe Hyukjae's little sister. It's impossible Hyukjae was crying over their break up, right?
"I'm telling the truth. It's your choice to believe me or not." Hyoyeon just shrugged her shoulder and back to her homework.
Donghae kept thinking if Hyoyeon telling the truth or not. It's hard to believe that Hyukjae cried over their break-up. Hyukjae had been ignored him when they're still together, why would he cry over their break up?
"You should visit him, oppa." Hyoyeon suggested.
"What? No. He would angry." Donghae shook his head.
"No, oppa. He will be happy. Just come, okay?" Hyoyeon said to him and Donghae finally thinks that maybe it's a good idea.
"Okay." Donghae nodded and Hyoyeon smiled to him.
Donghae finally decided to visit Hyukjae at his house after school. He asked Siwon to accompany him because it was too lonely to go alone.
When he reached the house, Hyoyeon was already there and she smiled to Donghae. Hyoyeon told him to just go to Hyukjae's room right away.
Donghae knocked the door and opened it only to found Hyukjae was sitting on his bed while laughing together with the tall girl he met at canteen.
They turned around to looked at Donghae, and they were a little bit surprised.
"Donghae?" Donghae swore he could see Hyukjae was a little bit happy to see him. But when he came into his room and Siwon followed behind, he glared at Siwon and the happiness gone. "What are you doing here?"
"I'm here to visit you and make sure you're okay." Donghae answered with a small smile.
"Of course I'm okay. Why wouldn't I?" Hyukjae said coldly. "Sooyoung is here to take care of me."
Donghae felt his heart squeezed by invisible hands. Donghae looked at the tall girl named Sooyoung and she smiled awkwardly. She was going to stand up from the bed but Hyukjae held her hands and said, "stay here. It's okay."
Sooyoung was confused and awkward to be there. Donghae looked so sad to see Hyukjae held her hands and Sooyoung realized it, but Hyukjae ignored him.
"Uhm.. Okay, then. I think.. I should just go. You don't need me though..." Donghae said then fake a smile. He felt so stupid. Of course Hyukjae doesn't need him, what makes you think he does, Donghae? Donghae bit his lips and Hyukjae knows it too well that it means Donghae is holding his tears. Hyukjae looked away. "Thanks for take care of Hyukjae. Please keep taking care of him." Donghae said to Sooyoung and bowed to her.
"Pffft. Don't pretend like you care." Hyukjae suddenly said while looking away. Sooyoung widened his eyes at Hyukjae while Donghae was taken aback by the things he said.
"What's wrong with you?! I care about you a lot! You're the one who didn't care about me!" Donghae snapped at Hyukjae and tears started to visible on his eyes. "What's my fault, Hyuk, until you hate me so much?" He tried so hard to prevent his sobs to be heard. But tears fell on his cheeks already.
Siwon started to hugged Donghae's shoulder and patted his back to soothe him. Hyukjae glanced at the gesture and looked away again. He ignored Donghae's burst out.
Donghae ran out of Hyukjae's room and Siwon immediately followed him.
Sooyoung looked at Hyukjae in disbelief and sighed heavily, "babo."
That's the last straw. Donghae promised he will never ever communicate through anything anymore with Hyukjae. He was hurting enough, and Donghae thinks he couldn't handle it anymore. Whatever Hyukjae's problem is, he didn't care anymore.
When Hyukjae finally back to school, that's too bad he always meet Hyukjae in canteen. Their eyes always accidentally met for a few seconds before they looked away. This is really cruel because Donghae will never could forget Hyukjae while he always meet him and saw those lovable eyes everyday. Donghae still couldn't forget him and cried every night in his sleep.
Donghae often saw Hyukjae with Sooyoung. They're having fun together a lot. Hyukjae always trolled her and it makes Donghae jealous like hell.
While Hyukjae always saw Donghae with Siwon. Donghae spent his time with his old best friend a lot even though they're not a classmate.
PART 2