Life update: Where to begin? And wheret not to? Might as well start with the damned men. I'm proud of myself for not texting Greg in about 2 weeks; fighting the daily urge to pick at the scab and text him a, "Miss me? :p" text. I'm ashamed for even admitting in writing that I would give him the time of day after finding out that he is a liar, ( Read more... )

It's a crappy mood day. The first half was ok, but as the day goes on I find myself getting depressed again. I'm frustrated with people, and I'm finding it hard to care right now. Which sucks, because I have the girls who kind of need me to care ( Read more... )

This path is surprising and difficult all the time lately. I said that I felt like my "compass" was broken after my relationship with Daryl ended.....I definitely feel like my compass is broken but maybe the grand plan is not to fix it after all? After all the hurts I have had hurled at me lately, I would normally retreat, tell everyone in my life ( Read more... )

I want to stop playing recent events over in my head, to stop torturing myself. But for now I find myself up at 3 am, replaying all Greg's lies in my head......how he was able to manipulate me so easily. I wanted to believe the best in him, but that's no comfort to me now. I find myself wondering if he really cared about me at all. Or did I just ( Read more... )

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Wow, wow, wow.......that's all I can think as I sit here wondering how this day went from potentially great to me crying over Greg AGAIN! We are even just "friends" now and he has made me cry! I let him have it via text.....not what I wanted to say which was "Fuck you! Get as far away from me as humanly possible!!!!!!!!!!" but instead some choice ( Read more... )

"What's this feeling? My love will rip a hole in the ceiling. Giving myself to you from the essence of my being. Sing to my God these songs of love and healing."---- Matisyahu

I was contemplating my unworthiness....how I could either let the feelings of inferiority stand between myself and God, or I could rejoice in the absolute beauty of receiving ( Read more... )

I know there's no such thing as a "perfect" person, but I'd like to at least get in writing so that I have something to refer to ( Read more... )

I dont think I can handle this!!! Greg...found out today that he's still married, then he says its my fault I didn't know because I dont ask about his life. First of all....I do ask. And he always dances around the question.......actually nevermind ( Read more... )

3-7pm was School's Out celebration at FBC. I ran the face painting booth :) Got a sunburn but had fun hanging out with the lovely Linda Lillico ( Read more... )