a terribly pathetic rant for valentine's day

[silversyrup]

goddamn. i thought i didn't care about this holiday, that it wouldn't phase me. but i've been very depressed today. i am so fucking lonely. a person sent me flowers...they're beautiful really and they did brighten my day for awhile, but now its dark and i have nothing to do tomorrow and no one to call tonight. i think i should purchase some whiskey

Comments

[lulu_girl]

I'm sorry to hear that you're so bummed out. If you weren't so far away, we'd definitely go for a beer.

yeah, i know. great words of wisdom here.

xo

[silversyrup]

i need to move back to new york. i was starting to feel so happy and settled there. i do come back from time to time. i'll tell you next time and maybe we can go have a beer at howard's bar or something? i miss you.

[toodestructive]

rachel pitt and i were just thinking about dodo biscuithead and that time we were going to feed edie sedgewick to him. that was earlier tonight, and i thought, erin plew, i wish she was still around. i hope that things are better tomorrow. i always thought you were real neat.

[silversyrup]

eric p. oh eric.p how you feel me with glee oh eric p!that's a new one... hey so even if i'm not really filled with glee at this exact moment, it is really good to hear from you. you were there when dodo biscuithead came to me for the first time. oh things good from riverwood. i miss you too.

[stealyourheart]

yes, rachel pitt was telling me and lauren davis about that. and then she decided to call up eric.

i hope your smile becomes real and you aren't so lonely, erin plew.
miss you.

[twotonevespa]

I won't feed you any b.s. about how things have a silver lining. You'll see it for yourself, eventually, and until then, there's still alot of us rooting for you from the home front. I hope every day shines a little bit brighter on you.

[silversyrup]

thank you stewart.or do you spell it stuart? i cannot remember. anyway, sometimes iwonder how we never got to be really good friends. its the same with amethyst. i always thought you were really great. and i know things aren't lined with silver. i've just figured out that things are always the same ammount of shitty and i'm just better at dealing with it some moments than i am at others. i had a giant breakdown today and then i drank a couple glasses of wine, watched "before sunset" which i've been meaning to see for ages, and now i feel so much better. even though my eyes still sting. and even though i am still terribly alone today. but its ok. i've just never tasted this kind of loneliness before. i was just so comfortable in nashville. anyway. things will work out the way that they do or don't and we'll just have to see. as you said.

[twotonevespa]

"sometimes i wonder how we never got to be really good friends

[a_tragic_air]

erin plew. i was thinking about you earlier today and then thought i saw you at the springwater and got excited. alas i was wrong. i hope the end of this evening found you well.

love-amanda lee

[a_tragic_air]

and i thought i saw you at the goldrush. not springwater.

[silversyrup]

hm. well i did want to goldrush, but alas, i was in chicago. this lonely heart sure did need the company of other lonely hearts :)