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"everything i do is done laboriously, with great difficulty and uncertainty. i am very lazy, and if i want to finish anything it is absolutely essential that i spend hours stretched out on the sofa."
i spent the day listening to npr, or reading essays. i made a cake. which makes me feel like i did something. but not really. i played with the dogs. i emailed my grandma and professor. going to the bar tonight. being productive is so difficult. the smallest achievement seems like a milestone. i spent two hours in bed when i woke up thinking about how every minute was going to be like pulling a tooth. i just want to nap. and not do homework. i need to do homework. spending five hours by myself was good, but i still didn't do what i needed to. i need to do homework.
reallyreallyneed.
todohomework.
i also wish my computer wasn't broken. and can't wait until friday. the antic-antic-anticpation is killing me.
i spent the day listening to npr, or reading essays. i made a cake. which makes me feel like i did something. but not really. i played with the dogs. i emailed my grandma and professor. going to the bar tonight. being productive is so difficult. the smallest achievement seems like a milestone. i spent two hours in bed when i woke up thinking about how every minute was going to be like pulling a tooth. i just want to nap. and not do homework. i need to do homework. spending five hours by myself was good, but i still didn't do what i needed to. i need to do homework.
reallyreallyneed.
todohomework.
i also wish my computer wasn't broken. and can't wait until friday. the antic-antic-anticpation is killing me.