Title: "Hearts"

[similiesslip]

I lick my dry lips. I long for the quenching relief, to flow into my mouth and refresh my soul but even this is denied me. It's early on Valentine's Day 2006 but I'm not awake for some romantic action or loving experience. I'm heading to the hospital as soon as I get ready.

The dripping of the faucet after my shower reminds me of my mission, to stop

Comments

[java_fiend]

This is absolutely heartbreaking, lady. I'm so, so, so very sorry that you had to endure this. And to have to endure it alone... it's just. Wow. There really are no words that are even remotely adequate. *HUGS* I'm so sorry.

[similiesslip]

It's been over 6 years now so...in time, one relearns that life goes on, whether you are ready or not. I got pregnant with my youngest soon after and thankfully, she survived the pregnancy and filled my arms that felt so empty on that Valentine's Day. I know miscarriage and pregnancies are common but she seemed like such a miracle to me. I needed her.

Thank you for the kind words. You made me tear up all over again.

[java_fiend]

I am so glad your little one came along when you needed her most. That's a beautiful thing.

[____hejira]

*huggs* I... understand. Beautiful piece.

[whipchick]

So powerful - the images here are heartbreaking. It's sad and also a testament to your writing that you strengthen my resolve never to have children - I don't want to risk this level of heartbreak. They aren't replacements, of course, but I'm glad you also have the joy of other children.

[minnesattva]

Thank you for sharing this. It's wonderfully and movingly written, but I'm sorry it had to happen.

[myrna_bird]

We might not always get what we want but we do get what we need. I am sorry for your loss. A very heartfelt entry.