sometimes i let you in

[simon__benjamin]

I've come to realize why I enjoy Lancaster so much now that I'm gone. When I come home I have no job, I don't usually have errands to run, I see my friends and family. I can actually get a good nights rest. This doesn't make Lancaster any better than Philadelphia, if anything it makes it worse. When I'm in Lancaster it's like I'm hiding from life,

Comments

[nitrokin]

That is a good reason not to date, but since the whens and wheres are so uncertain, do you think you could hold off on something (if presented to you) that might turn out to be an amazing match because you might be moving soon/soonish/later/in-the-near-future??

It seems to me that you are putting a part of your life on hold for something that might not happen for quite a long time.

Then again, I'm not apart of your life so I don't know the details. But that's what I got from what you typed.

Geez. I hope your new living arrangement is going really well. :>

[simon__benjamin]

You got just what I wanted you to. I know its foolish to put a part of my life on hold but I think it is even more foolish to put my life on hold for something/one else. I would want someone to put their life on hold for me. It breaks down to being ok with not having a love life but going after the life i want instead of having a love life and just living things out day to day.
I'm sure I could have both or neither, haha. I guess I just dont't trust myself enough and it really has nothing to do with another person. The living arrangement is a mess, the house we were supposed to have is no longer ours. Now we have to find another place and is driving me mad. On the plus side this more than likely means the new place will be cheaper.