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i want to be really really small, so that if need be, i can easily just disapear
i want to be cute and small
practically nonexistant
i want to be like a twig, really really skinny so that if i turn side ways, you wouldn't be able to see me
i think that would make me feel better
i want to have HUGE eyes
i want to find a boy who will like me as much as i like him
all the boys i ever like, people say aren't good enough for me
so why is it that i always fall head over heels for them, and they just nonchalantly toss me to the side
i must be doing something wrong, if you can think of anything, please tell me
i'd love to be able to stop it
i need to be reassured
i feel like an insecure little kid
but i never really want to grow up
i hate to think that one day i may have to stop being immature
i wish i didn't cry so easily
maybe i'll start drinking, or smoking, so that way i won't have to feel so much
it would be nice to be numb for a while
i didn't used to be like this, i used to always want EXTREME emotions
but right now i just want to not have to deal with it, probably because i know that i still like you
but you don't like me
because boys never like me, they just want to be my friend
i hate being your friend
i wish i was small enough to slip into your body undetected, and sneak into your heart
i wish things were different
just so you know, i'm saying this to manipulate you into feeling sorry for me, becase i am manipulative. i would stop, but it gets me what i want, and why would i stop doing something that gets me what i want?
i wish i would stop, it makes me feel vain and conceited and snooty and bad
so i'm sorry i tried to manipulate you
and i'm even more sorry if it worked.
i love anne freya
=mel=