Love life not so lovely...
If you love me, you'll read this and give me advice.
Rating: R :/
Oh. my. god.
HE pisses me off so much. Do you know what he had the nerve to do today?!?!
He's on his way to work and calls me...
Manny:Baby, we need to start figuring out what we're gonna do.
Me: About you going to college?
Manny: Yes, see, its going to be so hard with me trying to do all my school work, visit my family and try to see you. Because I won't have the money to come to see you, or have you come out here."
Me: ...
Manny: "Baby?"
Me: *holds back tears* yes?
Manny: We will most likely be totally different people when its time for you to start college, and we may not love eachother anymore. I think we should just hold off and see what happens in the future...
Me: So, like... seeing other people?
Manny: Of course, I mean... it will be hard not to, right?
Me: Alright, call me after work... if you want.
Manny: I will, don't worry
Me: Ok..bye
Manny: Bye, baby... I love-
Me: *Click*
Do I not have a right to be mad here?! He wants to still remain a couple and everything until he goes off to college, but why should I delay the inevidable? It will just prolong the hurt and I will be dreading for the time when he goes to college. It's like he doesn't even want to try with our relationship anymore...
I don't know, but I had the chance to make out and possibly do the HOTTEST piece of ass I've ever known last night.
See, his name is Mark. And usahdjaheuqweehdjasd DROOL! He's what I'm attracted to... he has a tattoo and numerous piercings. *DROOL*
He showed me his nipple rings (which I normally don't find hot, but they look SO good on him.) and his tounge ring. So then, we were stoned out of our minds and I was flirting uncontrolablly with him... even with three other people in the car. (I blame the drugs.) :X
See, Mark and I used to be... like more than friends; but not a couple because we always felt weird, since we each dated eachother's best friend at one point... but since we both in that postion, we felt it was ok to at least show intrest in eachother. OH! And I could SOOOOO feel the sexual tension between us. We went to drop him off and I was like || <-- this close to pushing him on his bed and start
humping him. Ok, maybe I'm a little horny, but you guys should SEE him! ghjagedyadsadgashkdsa. He makes me wanna la la.
But! Since, I have a boyfriend and he has a girlfriend, we kept it at a flirting level. But he DID tell me that she wasn't that great in bed. : D hahaha
Ok, you don't understand... we would have such GREAT sex. We're both freaks and have talked about it many-a-times. And now that I'm 18 and he won't get sent to jail... perhaps we should arrange something; after I get the balls to dump Manny and he gets rid of her.
Ok... so, I sound like a whore. So sue me.
Right now, I'm going through that stage where I think that screwing someone else will help me get over the love of my life... so that later I can go back a regret what I did. That sounds about right.
DAMN. I wish I haven't read so many psychology books so I don't know what I'm trying to trick myself into believing... and even know the end results. >.<
But Mark really is fine.
Did I mention his tounge is pierced?
Or that its been 3 weeks and 2 days since I'd gotten laid?
Rating: R :/
Oh. my. god.
HE pisses me off so much. Do you know what he had the nerve to do today?!?!
He's on his way to work and calls me...
Manny:Baby, we need to start figuring out what we're gonna do.
Me: About you going to college?
Manny: Yes, see, its going to be so hard with me trying to do all my school work, visit my family and try to see you. Because I won't have the money to come to see you, or have you come out here."
Me: ...
Manny: "Baby?"
Me: *holds back tears* yes?
Manny: We will most likely be totally different people when its time for you to start college, and we may not love eachother anymore. I think we should just hold off and see what happens in the future...
Me: So, like... seeing other people?
Manny: Of course, I mean... it will be hard not to, right?
Me: Alright, call me after work... if you want.
Manny: I will, don't worry
Me: Ok..bye
Manny: Bye, baby... I love-
Me: *Click*
Do I not have a right to be mad here?! He wants to still remain a couple and everything until he goes off to college, but why should I delay the inevidable? It will just prolong the hurt and I will be dreading for the time when he goes to college. It's like he doesn't even want to try with our relationship anymore...
I don't know, but I had the chance to make out and possibly do the HOTTEST piece of ass I've ever known last night.
See, his name is Mark. And usahdjaheuqweehdjasd DROOL! He's what I'm attracted to... he has a tattoo and numerous piercings. *DROOL*
He showed me his nipple rings (which I normally don't find hot, but they look SO good on him.) and his tounge ring. So then, we were stoned out of our minds and I was flirting uncontrolablly with him... even with three other people in the car. (I blame the drugs.) :X
See, Mark and I used to be... like more than friends; but not a couple because we always felt weird, since we each dated eachother's best friend at one point... but since we both in that postion, we felt it was ok to at least show intrest in eachother. OH! And I could SOOOOO feel the sexual tension between us. We went to drop him off and I was like || <-- this close to pushing him on his bed and start
humping him. Ok, maybe I'm a little horny, but you guys should SEE him! ghjagedyadsadgashkdsa. He makes me wanna la la.
But! Since, I have a boyfriend and he has a girlfriend, we kept it at a flirting level. But he DID tell me that she wasn't that great in bed. : D hahaha
Ok, you don't understand... we would have such GREAT sex. We're both freaks and have talked about it many-a-times. And now that I'm 18 and he won't get sent to jail... perhaps we should arrange something; after I get the balls to dump Manny and he gets rid of her.
Ok... so, I sound like a whore. So sue me.
Right now, I'm going through that stage where I think that screwing someone else will help me get over the love of my life... so that later I can go back a regret what I did. That sounds about right.
DAMN. I wish I haven't read so many psychology books so I don't know what I'm trying to trick myself into believing... and even know the end results. >.<
But Mark really is fine.
Did I mention his tounge is pierced?
Or that its been 3 weeks and 2 days since I'd gotten laid?