FRIENDS ONLY.

Got off the phone with Josh. We mostly talked about Ambrielle for a good hour or so, and it felt so good to get all the negative feelings off my chest, but I know it sorta pushed more anger on me. Well, not particularly anger but a slight resentment on how she handled the situation. It just irks me slightly that she promised me that she would stick ( Read more... )

I'm so fucking tired of being emotional. I know I ask for Mike to yell at me, but whenever he does I just start up and crying. It's so friggen aggravating. I hate crying. It's so weak, it's so pointless of me to do and all he is doing is yelling at me.

I have a really bad headache and I really want to talk to Thomas just to talk to him for once. ( Read more... )

I keep questioning my position in Thomas and my relationship. I have come across the conclusion that I do actually love him -- oh god, do I love him. I can't get him out of my mind, every little thing brings some type of thought or memory about him. It's absolutely crazy, and it's getting to the point where I believe it's bordering obsession. It's ( Read more... )

In Thomas's arms is where I feel most comfortable, where everything feels right. So why is it that we can only spend two hours each week doing so?

And for those who have threads with me:
I'm sorry for being extremely late, life hasn't been the easiest, I promise a reply asap.

( today's quizzes )

Well it hurts like walking barefoot on light bulbs
Smashing ideas with open skin
Til' the pearl white dorps of blood turn red
And everyone can tell
That you've worked hard enoughI talked to Thomas for a good hour today, which is amazing considering his family has restrained him from the phone for only fifteen to thirty minutes at a time. I'm so ( Read more... )

It always ends up doing this to me. Once I think I have it all sorted out, it fucks up on me one more time. I thought everything was going good, I had my best friend by my side, my boyfriend on the other, and friends all around me. But then my best friend leaves me, I can't find my boyfriend, my friends are ignoring me ( Read more... )

Ambrielle severed ties with me.

Why does this keep happening to me?

Time and time again
We fall into the depths of who we are
But you can't keep running away
From what you're trying to findWhy is it that the only time I feel good about myself, content with my life, is when everyone else is having a hard time? It seems like everyone I used to know so well is just dropping me and advoiding me. I about near cried ( Read more... )

Why do I constantly feel this way late at night when I'm working tirelessly at some project of mine? My mind loves to wander at this state, tending to brush up to subjects that I (at my norm) decline abruptly. Yet, now, when I have the lackluster of head-bobbing exhaustion I think of the conversations I have with him. All the horrid things I've ( Read more... )