Ellie's Diary: The state of the Anders family ((NSFW))
Wow, what a week. If someone had told me that I'd actually get to know Jennifer better and like her, I would've told them they're crazy and need to have their head checked. I guess I should back up a little, and start from the beginning.
Last Saturday night's Candlelight Ball was wonderful, and we all had a great time. Of course, Dennis and Jennifer weren't there, but none of us thought too much about the reason for their absence. We found out the answer in the Society section of Monday's paper when we saw a photograph of Dennis -- and a woman named Madison Rothschild -- mislabeled as Simon and me. I was... pretty shocked at who she really is, and is also actually someone that Simon and Ryan shared together once. Madison is the threesome woman, and partly why my interest was piqued from that silly meme over a year ago... wow, I can't believe it's been that long ago.
But Dennis had hired Madison to translate for him for a meeting, but that's not all... she was subbing for him that night too. They didn't have any sexual contact, but it's still cheating I think. I know that if it were me and Simon instead of Jennifer and Dennis, I'd be incredibly hurt by something like that. And incredibly, neither Simon nor their Uncle Marcus had had the first clue about Dennis's inclinations and leanings... there's no way I would've known either.
The whole thing blew up quite badly really, and I actually met with Jennifer for lunch on Thursday. It went very well I think, and I feel guilty for thinking of her so poorly in the past. It all makes sense though, now, as to why she'd had such a mistrust and hatred for BDSM -- she'd gotten pregnant in college, but it'd been the night that Dennis had coaxed her into experimenting with being tied up that it'd all happened. That association has been in her mind ever since, and that's why she'd been appalled that I'd willingly "subject" myself to the same things. But I think she has a better idea now about us, and how much power and control I really do have, that she's at least going to reconsider things.
They really do have a lot of work and tears ahead of them, but I hope they can work things out. It'd be a shame to lose everything they've made and shared together, and how it might affect the boys, too. They're going to see Dr. Radlin together and separately, and Jennifer and I have agreed to talk and e-mail regularly now too. I sent her a copy of our contract on Thursday, and I hope it's helped her see just how safe and protected and loved I really am. And I hope she and Dennis can have the same, if it's right for both of them.
This is going to be an interesting week indeed, with everyone converging on the Anders' family home on Thursday. My parents are flying in on Wednesday and then staying with Uncle Marcus and Katrina that night, and then we'll all be at Meredith's and Stanley's overnight on Thursday. Hopefully Dennis and Jennifer and the boys will too, but no one's going to insist on it and push them into something they're not yet ready to do.
But them staying together and working things out? That's what I want this Christmas.