Stupid, that was yesterday. My only word for it. So, I decided to do a lifestyle change and start going to the gym again. I didnt realize how out of shape I was until I discovered I could only run one mile (and in 10 min!) I used to do 3 in about 22, so you can imagine the dissapointment. Still, its ok. I managed to burn 500 cals total, along with ( Read more... )

I'm just sitting here, trying to remember the last time I was truly happy. I think it was around second grade, or third. My innocence was hurt by painful friends who turned everyone on me in fourth, and I've been distrustful of people ever since and have problems opening my true self up ( Read more... )

Today was ok. 1200 cals, and 136 in the morning (eeeeep I know) still, I'll get it down. I'll kill my cravings with gum or something.

I made Gemma Icons! These are my first set ever, so please don't judge TOO harshly. =)


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1500 for me already today. No more, and I'm going rock climbing in 2 hours so thats good. I'm doing that about 4x a week now, and I love it. I can climb 5.10c now (emphazize on CAN.) Still, considering I started 2 months ago that's amazing ( Read more... )

It. I miss the feeling. It was wonderful - I always felt like I was a beautiful angel when I was thinner. Now, now, it doesn't feel that way. I thought I would feel better if I tried to give it up, gave into teptation, gave into the sins of gluttony; but I don't like my body at all now. I'm not trying, and I hate that my willpower has faded. It all ( Read more... )

I am being lazy and procrastinating my homework. Which is due tomorrow.
Seriously, I used to care alot about my future; now I feel as if I'm going with the flow and finally being happier, but I'm stopping my studies. I really need to put my mindset back.
Okay, science time, and no more excuses! ONTD is just too fascinating.

A math test tomorrow! My brain is in pain from my half an hour of homework (With 3 hours other hw, so that makes sense.) I hope I do well ( Read more... )

I'm sitting here thinking about what to write. Comparing Animal Farm (book) and Wag the Dog (movie) is not very nice. The student teacher wasn't very clear, and I don't know where to go beyond all I've got already, which are the 3 topics to discuss ( Read more... )

Rock climbing is really fun.
Everyone should do it
I go almost every day, which isn't too good for my muscles (stupid human body) but I am advancing.
Oh how I advance.
It is almost scary.
Already, I have reached about 5.10a after 3 weeks now
Starting at a shitty 5.6
Doesn't that make me feel good?

Better than finishing an essay.