I might have reached a decision that I can live with about my living situation for a time. I think others and in agreement as well... just hopefully one person doesn't get to upset... because I adore her ( Read more... )

I'm writing the journal strictly for myself... not for others. I came to a dawning conclusion... may that trigger something in my mind to mock me in latter years I know not. Mental mind.. redundant much? know who I am... and know that I think I missed a portion of the chain.. maybe a couple times over... and may never be given the shot ( Read more... )

Just going to post real fast before I run out the door. I'm actually pleasant right now.. and I promised in the previous blog that I wouldn't become the sort of person to just vent in journal form.. so I'm holding myself to that. I get to see something that I haven't seen for days.. and I'm excited... I need to kill my procrastinating nature. Bad ( Read more... )

I called everyone back that had called... getting better at doing that. Although I'm sure the phone bill isn't going to be any better. I still haven't studied for the final and I have to leave in 15 minutes.. self destructive much? I hate christmas... I want to just sit infront of a warm fire.. with tiny little snacks and watch something ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel like a spider that has just consumed the full meal of it's companion and yet has no remorse. I think I get more irritated that I haven't found the elements that make my life more complete than am actually an evil person. I fluctuate in between being angelic and trying to make everyone happy or more satisfied and when that isn't an ( Read more... )

I feel somewhat better at times... and just the smallest look for another person can cause me to come back to reality. I am fearful of myself.. and maybe my actions. Due to the fact that no matter how much I try to please... I still end up turning something into waste. Sure I knew experiences from each thing that transpires in my life would bring ( Read more... )

I spent most of yesterday attempting to avoid working on my lab report paper for some reason. After drinking last night.. and taking some over the counter pain meds I woke up today early enough to work on it and get it done prior to class. Unforunately, I still haven't started it yet and I can feel the time ticking away every second ( Read more... )

The following is a conversation between a friend of mine, Jose, that lives in Texas and myself about the stupid people that the occurences that he has to face working for a hotel chain as a self representative. It was magical ( Read more... )

I left my yahoo messenger open today and came back to the computer with a random weirdo that happened to remember me from some sort of past chatting experience. I went through a time that I would play the game of personifying myself into the traditional image and response of an attention hungry online female. This was not recent...This was how it ( Read more... )

The FUCKED UP survey....do it ( Read more... )