Where does life go?

[sinceredeath]

I hate how I feel right now. I know I'm overreacting. Why is it when we are together, things are perfect and when we are apart, there is tension? I hate how I feel like I take a step forward and ten steps backwards. Of all the fucking things I have tried to improve on, I fuck up on the one I think is the least important. I feel like an idiot. But

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[alreadydead1]

Nicole, your past had no bearing on why I was upset with the lie, or would I have been less upset had it of been anyone else.

I was so upset because like you, the past is hard to let go. It worries me that if you would lie about something so small, what happens when something big happens?

Never forget that I do love you and want to be with you from the bottom of my soul. We need to nip this shit early, which is why, even if the conversations piss us off, I have them.

It would be nice to think our journey will bhe easy, and I'm sure a lot of it will be. However there will he arguments, misunderstandings and mscommunications. We need to see that our love, and being together is far more important than giving up. I will never give up on you.

[sinceredeath]

And that is what drives me friggen insane is that I've tried to tell you everything and of course this stupid fucking incident has to be a huge deal. I don't want to feel like I can't talk to you about everything. And I don't want to have this conversation anymore. I woke up feeling fine and over it this morning and then I read this and I'm all pissed off all over again. And people from my past have been easy to let go over time. It's everything else that isn't easy to let go. Ugh. And I hate how you said I lied. It makes me feel like because I didn't tell you I ended up giving him my number that EVERYTHING I said is a lie. This is a stupid fucking argument. I'm so done with it.