I ditched work to spend more time with her today. We've been spending alot of time together lately. She's getting a divorce (not for me, but because he wants to). Im trying to be her friend, but things are getting more intimate. I dont think I can do this any more. I tell myself I love her, she tells me she loves me, but I cant, we cant. Nothing ( Read more... )

Today has the potential to be the worst ever.

And there she was, there watching me the entire time. I didnt mind it so much. Ive been so busy, I havent had time to pay attention to everyday life, to her. I keep telling myself, two more weeks... Ive been telling myself that for nearly 3 weeks already. Truly, 2 more weeks and then I can stop to breath.

I woke up to Fefe "the counter top queen", with a needle and thread in her throat! I told her all week she had a vet appointment today... Of course, she paid no attention. As soon as she see's the vet, what do you think she does? Attack!!! She gets sedated (her fault), then gets her check-up. I felt so bad for her, I cried. FIVE hours later she ( Read more... )

Eight days can be a very long time. When I initially got the okay for the time off, I was so excited at the thought of visiting friends and Family that I made an eight day reservation to spend with them. The idea now... not so bueno. I can't imagine leaving Fefe with a baby sitter for that long, and honestly, I have so much shit out here that needs ( Read more... )

After running into a friend yesterday at one of his restaurants, we fall into a conversation about old school cook vs. new cooks. While both sides are completely fucked up, were waiting for the "merge" to happen. Now here's the situation, take me for example,I work for a four star chef, Ive been there for over two years and he and I get along ( Read more... )

it feels so good to finally be hot and sweating. It doesnt fully feel like summer, although to get some sun and warmth makes me feel new. This summer is going to be short, but Im going to make the most of it ( Read more... )

while being in the midst of spring, I have the most beautiful view from my bedroom window. As a matter of fact, I have the most spectacular view from work and the walk to get to the train is hardly ugly with all the historic brownstones. Its been raining for the past 24 hours and with the new colors out, it's the most romantic site ever ( Read more... )

So as Murphys Law lives strong, Ive had my own special visit to his land. Several weeks ago I was talking to a friend about how I havent burned my self in months... then two days later, I burn my fore arm (bad). A couple days before that I was talking to another friend about how Ive worked a monday through friday schedule... then that gets changed ( Read more... )

bjork... I love her.