So, I've sorta had this visiter for a while now.  Almost 2 years it seems.  He influenced me to make a lot of decisions I'd been fighting for so long.  Being completely unexpectedly upheaved from a place I was once happy forced me to make a rushed decision.  When I was still unhappy he asked "then why are you here?"  I realized I shouldn't be, so I ( Read more... )

So I've heard this song numerous times in the last month.  It's been on a completely Lou Reed themed new movie.  Totally random.  I've heard it on the radio, a fucking miracle since this is not that popular of a song, and especially not for current radio tunes!  I've also recently heard it on an older movie.  So anyway, I have a history with this ( Read more... )

"The men eyed her with the automatic mix of curiosity, lust, and aesthetic judgement they always gave young women, subject to object, the way you'd stare at an animal.  She pretended not to notice.  To remind them she was a person was too much effort.  Objects bore no guilt."

Sometimes you're nothing but meat.  A lamb in a lion's den.  Some people ( Read more... )

Lately I've been craving to see some old flicks.  Got SCREAM and watched that.  Matthew Lilard is in it.  Then when I was at the parent's, house and pet sitting, Hackers was on the dish.  Also with Matthew Lilard.  Now I'm watching Law and Order Speda Vita U.................and why is he in this episode?!?!?!?  So weird.  He looks like an old ( Read more... )

So it's funny that I was JUST talking about synchronicity.  It's funny that synchronicity came up in my previous post because of the discussions I had with so many different people in the last few weeks.  None were even sparked by me.  So what a coincidence that I made the post I made about temptations and wanting to do something wrong and then low ( Read more... )

I've had a ridiculous week.  Everything about it, the total and complete chaoticness saturated every aspect of each day.  I don't know what the fuck I'm doing.  I swear to god sometimes I'm amazed at what a struggle it is for me to maintain being a good person.  I think I go through these stages where the urge is overwhelming and it makes me wonder ( Read more... )

It's really interesting sometimes how synchronicity works out.  I honestly wonder sometimes if people can hear my thoughts from where they are, if there's something that clicks in their head when I'm thinking about them.  I love it when that happens.  Happened recently.  I was thinking of them after not hearing/seeing/talking to them for a while, ( Read more... )

I keep feeling the need to "blog" since I've been reading so many other people's blogs lately.  I'm trying to shed the portion of my personality that whines and complains and envies.  Unfortunately, that leaves me rather silent these days.  It's Sunday.  Easy like Sunday Morning.  Everyday is Like Sunday.  I wish.  I honestly love Sundays and wish ( Read more... )

So last year I posted this list of things I was looking foward to for the year, so I thought it would be cool to revisit it and make a new one for 2009:

Things I'm looking foward to in 2008

~My family in good health!!!!
~Graduating FIDM
~Getting a GREAT job in my field, with great pay and benefits and all that jive
~Falling in love
~Camping trip to ( Read more... )

My sister is moving and needs to find a replacement to rent her room. She lives in North Berkeley in a 2-bedroom, 1 bath in-law type house that is behind a larger house. The back area is protected with a key/lock wood fence/gate. Her current roommate will keep living there, the lease is under her name. I would say you should probably be 420 frien ( Read more... )