Unfortunatley, I will not write in here anymore. I am through with this website and my subsequent addiciton that has developed and I have since nutured. But, no more. It is time to kick the habit. If you would like to know about my life, you may call me or instant message me or get off your lazy ass and drive to my house, if you so choose. But, ( Read more... )

i can't do this anymore. i do things and forget to finish them. i drive and i forget where i am going. i forget things people tell me. i forget things i tell other people. i have to dance and pretend (for the most part) that i am happy. but i'm not. i'm the farthest from it that i've been in quite some time. yesterday i almost started crying in the ( Read more... )

if i told you i may have lost five pounds over this, would you worry?

what did i let you do to me?

pit.

peach pit
accidentaly swallowed
sitting in my stomach.
invading my stomach.
growing in my stomach.

get out.

stop growing.
let me beat you.
let me win.
i'm not strong enough to win on my own.

strong.

weak.

on my own.

i guess i'm bitter and i wish i understood why. i wish i understood the things that are tearing their way through me. emotions that have been repressed for far too long are dying to escape. i need to talk to someone. i wish i knew who to talk to. i really do.

never in a million years did i think this would happen. never.

last night was absolutley the best. jordin came over and we went and rented movied and got dinner. we made ourselves a roasted chicken, some potatoes, and i made jordin a great salad (or put the lettuce in the bowl rather lol). we enjoyed a classy dinner while listening to rod stewart. it was the most grown up we have ever been. ever. then we made ( Read more... )

i have decided that i absolutley hate sundays. i need something to do. someone please call me. i need to hang out and not sit around and wallow in my imaginary self-pity. what is it about sundays that does this to me ( Read more... )

prom was wonderful. pictures will follow soon. when i have the time and the energy to bother to post them. my date was gorgeous and we had a blast together. i can't believe it was my senior prom. MY senior prom. not someone else's, but mine. im almost done. 12 fucking days and i'm out of here. whoa ( Read more... )

drip.drip.drop ( Read more... )