so anna brought our laptop back. she leaves on the 8th for AIT and my brother is in basic ( Read more... )

bitching:

dude, what the fuck is wrong with me? i'm like fucking exhausted way too damn much. you would think, i go to bed late, i sleep in, right? wrong. i go to bed at 3 and still get up at fucking 730 in the fucking morning. and to top it off, i fell asleep while talking to him. AGAIN! he says it wasnt a big deal, and i guess it really wasnt ( Read more... )

at least, thats what i think it is. i think i'm so nervous about starting work, i'm close to getting sick. i feel so weird. i just need to calm down. i start next week ( Read more... )

my brother told mike. everything he knew about me and josh. mike says he's okay w/ it although he doesnt "understand" but thats irrelevent. the fact is nick told him. after i told him so many fricken times not to. and he said okay i wont. and the same day mike got there, as soon as i left to go sit at the end of our walkway, nick told him. that ( Read more... )

so like the title says, i'm really fucking happy. Josh came over wednesday and thursday. it makes me happy. and right now, i really really miss him and i'm not even gone yet. i'm so screwed this week. plus, my shirt still smells like him from when i was leaning on him on the couch. i keep smelling it and smiling cuz it smells good ( Read more... )

TEN FAVORITES
01. televison show: i dont know anymore
02. flower: red roses
03. color: yellow, pink, green, black and blood red
04. sport: baseball
05. mall:
06. music: everything except most rap
07. food: cheeseburgers
08. season: fall/spring
09. animal: turtles, tigers and panthers
10. city: right now, abilene

TEN FACTS
01. hometown: where i was born? ( Read more... )

so, at 1:00 this morning, Josh and I got back together. I'm so happy. I decided to jump and say yes. I like him, he likes me, the only thing keeping me back was fear. Fear of me hurting him or me getting hurt. I don't want that, but I like him and want to give him a chance again. I know i said I was going to wait until Monday, but I couldn't. Not ( Read more... )

so, i dont know what to do. i want to but i dont. Tarra, thank you for your opinion, i appreciate it. because thats what i want but am afraid. so i'm here, asking for whoever reads this to give me your opinion ( Read more... )

he's not going on vacation. it makes me sad but i can see why. i think he should. i think he needs to think away from here. but its his choice, people need to accept that. its making me mad that they arent. but yea, he's not going. its going to feel weird. i'll prbly be alone for a lot of it. or hanging w/ one other person. i'll chill w/ everyone ( Read more... )

yea, thats right. i'm single again. i'm okay though, so dont ask if i am or feel sorry for me. i promise i'm okay. call if you want to find out what happened cuz i'm not posting it.