I feel completely alone yet again...I hate this I hate this sooo much...I hate that no matter how great I can feel it all comes crashing down because of how inconsiderate and mean people can be...I hate that I feel I have no one to turn to to make me feel better...I hate everything that is happening...I hate feeling so lonely I hate feeling so used ( Read more... )

This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looked so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles...

How many days in a year?
She woke up with hope but she only found tears.
And I can be so insincere,
Making her promises never for real!
As long as she stands there waiting,
Wearing the ( Read more... )

Well, in case you were wondering why all my posts recently have been all depressed and stressed, my grandma was just diagnosed with cancer of the pancreas...it has been a very hard time lately...things just keep going awry and its really really frustrating...I really just need my friends and their support...I really need a hug...lol...sorry for not ( Read more... )

OK so its past 2AM and I feel like writing a song...getting my feelings down on paper so its no longer inside of me confusing me....I feel so weird about this...and I know that the opening to this was the same as the last verse of the Anna Nalick song...that song is really meaning something to me right now...and I need to do something...I need to ( Read more... )

Your Summer Love Style is Head Over Heels
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So after the advising of Nik I finally read PERKS OF BEING A WALLFLOWER. It has got to be the best book I have read in a long long time...one of the quotes that keeps flopping around in my head is the heading to this entry "I would die for you. But I won't live for you." I feel this way about many of my friends...it has also made me realize that ( Read more... )

For as good as I was feeling I now feel like absolute shit...I feel like crying....I can't take this feeling anymore...I felt so great and the bad news just keeps coming...like I know I want to be happy...it's just so hard to let myslef be happy...I need to just breath.........

Ok so just got back from Orientation like 2 hours ago...It was sooo much fun...I found myself a roommate who is absolutely awesome and some really great friends...one thing I have to say is my love goes out to JOHN MOATS...even though he won't be reading this...he is the best student aide ever! So the first night I was there Me, Ashley(my roommate ( Read more... )

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Ok...so today went to my lil cuzin's grad party...then I went to James Hofbauers...that was sooo much fun just talking with Nick and Diana....well somehow James and I got on the subject of a certain person I liked alot this year...and was telling me that this gentleman used to talk about me...in a good way all the time at lunch...and it really got ( Read more... )