you see...sometimes shit happens. and i understand that completely. but what if it still makes you want to cry? you know that its gonna happen but you just cant help it, can you? no matter what...i love my friends and i want them all to be happy...even if im not. i'll get used to it...i will. i promise. it might take a while and it might be ( Read more... )

hmm...i know i havent updated in a while...but i'll try to remember everything that happened recently ( Read more... )

im in hofan's room right now and his bathroom is DISGUSTING!! i seriously didnt think that guys live like that. its freaking creepy and sad. anyways...im a little tipsy and im having a great time. haha. this week was all midterms and it sucked. but its still cool. and now i have to stop writing becuz i think im gonna pass out. love you guys ( Read more... )

ok...so what has happened the past 2 weeks? the semiformal was a lot of fun. we all got a little crazy especially me. i dont know what happened but it was fun so i dont care. we went to the beach before that and i got a little burned but still ok. there were a lot of volleyball guys and it was hot watching them play. i got hit on the mexican ( Read more... )

ok...so i havent updated earlier like i promised to but hey...i got things to do. first of all, my crush doesnt like me. we're trying to be friends and i hope that does work out. i still feel a bit sad but who doesnt. im excited about the semiformal cuz i got a dress that i actually like. evan and vic are going well...we'll see what happens. ( Read more... )

lets see...it seems to be a week of all old lovers calling me again. my girls and i went to corona to celebrate JJ's birthday. then we saw the beach house and it was the biggest disappointment. obviously...it didnt work out. afterwards we went apartment hunting all over irvine and we found some we liked and some we didnt. but needless to say...we' ( Read more... )

ok...really need to do some homework soon becuz im on AP so NEED to get an 2.0. ive been going to ALL my classes and i havent skipped one yet! arent you proud? haha...ok not much to show for but still...haha. i went over to steve's apartment yesterday to hang out and we ended up sleeping together. hes REALLY bad in bed...and now im less ( Read more... )

so...went shopping and dinner with the girls last night and it was fun. that feeling of feeling undesired is still lingering around. getting a little better. finally saw ralph last night and we slept together and it was nice. it wasnt animalistic or like "see ya!" kinda thing. it was actually...nice. my friends think im gonna get hurt and i ( Read more... )

so...i went to all my classes this week. i feel so accomplished. dustin told me he has a girlfriend now and expects me to care but i dont. sam is mad at me becuz he thinks im blowing him off but im just busy. steve cancelled on me becuz of a deadline or something. saw sin city with aaron today and that boy is such a FOOL!! three dates and he ( Read more... )

i know i havent updated but whatever...haha. you know you guys still love me. anyways...spring break was cool. went to tiff's party and that was fun. i actually fit into my 8th grade dance dress which was pretty wild. i saw his ass again and he ignored me as usual and i dont care. i finally deleted him out of my phone and off my buddy list. ( Read more... )