"the end of the worlds in front of me. hard to believe all i see. it comes so close but pulls away to let me stay another day. it's one chance in your lifetime, but it won't be the last time. it seems there's always the next hill to climb. and you know there's a lifetime. the things that i see never end, tricking my mind to just pretend ( Read more... )

i just dont know anymore. Im scared. Im scared of me. OF everybody else. I dont want to hurt anymore. I dont know what to do......i dont know what to do. Im so confused.. look at my life. look what i did to it. i cant even look at the mirror with out being ashamed of myself and that whore in it. im no good for people. i dont know what to do ... i ( Read more... )

so i write bad poetry trying to figure out exactly how i feel...

Memories ( Read more... )

Its ok ( Read more... )

God some people just dont give up. They dont get what they want so they say pointless things that are just annoying. o boo hoo i complain about my life ...why they fuck do you care i didnt ask you to read this did I? and about trying to fix things.. what the hell do you think im doing. IM NOT GOING THROUGH ALL THIS HELL FOR NOTHING. I WANT MY ( Read more... )

You get what you deal out...and you deserve it.
Im running away from things... agin....nothing new.

Its like everything I've known isnt anymore. I told my self that i would never me a cutter, but look at me now.... i have gouges in my side so deep they just wont heal. And as much as i try it doesnt take the pain away, it doesnt replace "it" it doesnt take away everything. I cut deeper, and deeper and i still feel it. I just want what i had back ( Read more... )

Everytime i cut it gets deeper. bleeds more ( Read more... )

Im not sure but lately its as if everyones enjoying stabing a knife through my heart. They doubled my meds...:-/. Go figure....Today I woke up late as useual got to school talked to Robert for a little while, went to first, x-mas treed a test, slept, then in Second period we actually watched a "Forest Gump". Third period I put my name on a test ( Read more... )