Even a spider would get caught in this web...

[sinksinkships]

I'm taking Joe's advice and venting in a live journal entry. If you can't take my endless ranting, there is a scroll-wheel on your mouse and/or screen for a reason

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[sink_ships330]

If you were to have posted this last year, I would've sworn that you were reading my mind. When I read this, my heart began to ache because as you may know, I've experienced similar things and I know how terrible it feels and how it haunts you. I wish I had the chance to get to know you better but I can tell that you're such a strong person (especially if you dealt with Frank for 3 years haha

[sinksinkships]

thank you jamie, I really appreciated what you said. and it does feel reassuring to know that I'm not alone in this. as the song goes, "why am i dying to live, if i'm just living to die" but really, it's too entirely true. we're on this planet and we've gotta fight to stay alive, and the more we overcome, the stronger we get. it's getting there that's the hard part.

and aww, come on. frank isn't thaaaaat bad :)
thank you again, girl. and when I told you I'd be there if you ever needed anything, regardless of me and frank being on good terms or not, i'm here.

we're all in this fight to live together.

[jackofhearts]

*Big Hugs*

You have a lot on your plate, yet you have dealt with it well from what I can tell, you're strong.

The thing with relationships and you moving on, the only advice I can give is before you get involved with another guy/relationship is to be sure you are happy with yourself and your life first because any relationship that you get into looking for happiness is one that will eventually fail when the other person tires of that burden. A relationship should be looked at as a bonus to add to your life and happiness not the source of it.

[sinksinkships]

"A relationship should be looked at as a bonus to add to your life and happiness not the source of it."

you're absolutely right.
i have to figure the rest of my life out before I go "looking for love" but I mean, cmon. the best kind of love is the love you "fall" into, literally.

thank you much

[jackofhearts]

Oh yea I'm definitely a romantic at heart and falling into love and a relationship that "just works" as opposed to one you have to "work on" is what I'd like to find myself.

[you_vultures]

"especially if you dealt with Frank for 3 years haha"

jerk.

[sink_ships330]

stop creepin

[sinksinkships]

i don't know how you've lived with him for 19 years aaahah

[lilmissl0vly1]

i've passed you in the hall, said hello, but this is the first time ive REALLY seen you since, hell, probably the 6th grade. all those years we lost contact, i wondered what happened to you. i wondered what you were doing, who you were with, what it was that made you so sad.

"Since I was a child, I've been building these walls up around me to avoid being hurt any more, but anyone else." take down the walls. let yourself be hurt and stop pretending everythings okay. its the only way you'll feel again.

i know it hurts like a bitch, but if it doesnt hurt, then your not gonna get better. keep writing. keep journaling. and let yourself feel.

this journal entry helped me more than you know

[sinksinkships]

I build up these walls but get hurt anyway. I take them down, all the time, and the minute I feel an inkling of something that isn't secure, I lose my grip and let go of everything.

I feel like I don't know you at all anymore, but I'd like to

and no one really knows me at all, until I write it down. my writing is where you really see "me"

thank you so much becca

[corner_cafes]

oh brit :( you know i'm always listening when we talk about all of this

[sinksinkships]

I love youuuu, thank you so much