where the fuck did that come from? first of all, you threw me away first. i thought we cleared that up. i never said we couldn't be friends. and in fact, if i remember correctly, apologized to you profusely not too long ago. and as far as your best friend goes, she turned into someone i never thought she was, so i guess that worked out in that she hurt me. and as fer your partner, he dropped me like a hot potato a second time and again with no explanation. you wanna talk about hurt? i could discuss that all day long. but, i know when to let things go sometimes. i'm not asking you to miss me or ache for me. all i've ever wanted in the last year from you was your acquaintance/friendship. wtf, woman? i've no idea where any of what you said just came from...
yeah, huh?autumnsshadowDecember 27 2005, 11:00:42 UTC
that's a pretty self-centered assessment of the direction our relationship has taken over the past year. if i recall, i made plans with you to come down and see you several times in the spring that you canceled; once for work and the others because you had last-minute opportunities to spend time with maeve8489 and took them...which i honestly had no problem with, but setting aside time on a weekend, let alone an overnight away from home, has been no small task the past year, so please don't turn it around and say that you got dropped.
and shortly after april, i took on a second job at work and have probably told you every time we've communicated that i've had absolutely no free time on the weekends(and you've told me the same, for that matter). i'm currently working the equivalent of two 50hour/wk jobs and on call 24/7. it's hard enough for me to find time to spend with theartemisiaway and we live in the same house.
what of that did you not already know? what more explanation do you want?
Re: yeah, huh?sinroseDecember 28 2005, 01:17:56 UTC
that's fair. i'm sorry. it's just that we seemed to drop out of one asnother's lives so quickly and easily that that's how it felt. you're right though. i know you're busy, and i'm no social hermit either. i humbly apologize. i was being self-pitying and self-righteous (not to mention pretty pissed off and hurt) when i wrote that in the heat of emotion the other night.( i was also pms-ing like a mother fucker) but none of those are good reasons, and excuses are unacceptable. you're right. ultimately, i guess i'm just terribly disappointed that we can't seem to find time to even chat with one another, and i miss you sometimes, and i never bother to pick up the phone and call you because i figure by now if you've not bothered to try to get in touch with me, then my phoning you would just be an unwanted burden. sorry, i get stupidly in my own head in that way sometimes, but i'm sure you knew that. i didn't realize you'd taken a second job...now i feel like even more of an asshole. you always were good at calling me out on my bullshit.
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and shortly after april, i took on a second job at work and have probably told you every time we've communicated that i've had absolutely no free time on the weekends(and you've told me the same, for that matter). i'm currently working the equivalent of two 50hour/wk jobs and on call 24/7. it's hard enough for me to find time to spend with theartemisiaway and we live in the same house.
what of that did you not already know? what more explanation do you want?
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