ah man i am so tired. last night i went to bed at three. heres my scedule from day to day, i get up at 6:59 and leave for school at 7:01. i go to class and float till i leave and stay home till 3ish when i either wash or iron my work clothes, i then go to practice late and leave and go home. i take a shower and go to work form 6 to 10:30-11ish ( Read more... )

um today was going pretty shitty until about 5 minutes till i got im my car. i saw these five girls who always seem to put a smile on my face and they did just that. i saw two and that would have been enough, but then bam i saw the other three ( Read more... )

i woke up this mourning thinking about my next step. and if i plan on being happy tommorrow why should i be sad today. why not just jumpstart the happiness now. i mean its ok to feel it once and a while but i am young and ablebodied so why not just go and start over. today is a new day the newest so far. so right now i am gonna go to practice ( Read more... )

i went to work today, i felt dull, i didnt have my sharpness, i didnt have my pop, my spark, my life force. it isnt for one reason imparticular or another but it is a buildup. my mind is constapated with sadness ( Read more... )

right now im broken. i didnt want him to come, she brought him. i knew he was gonna try to do it. he did it. she likes him, i hate him. now they are in my room doing who knows what. i dont want to know right now because i am destroyed. shell never even know but he doesnt even care about her. not like i do. i am so mad right now, i am ( Read more... )

i just dont know anymore. i was so happy yesterday and the oppisite today. by the was its late and im posting for the 13th. school sucked of course and im making a habit out of skipping 1st too much. but i really just dont know how i feel lately. ill start. sbw used to be one of my good friends and i valued their opinion but we lost touch for ( Read more... )

Today was one for the books. I had one of the best days ever. Well start off with me dropping my sister off and skipping first block bc i didnt study for the test and i had homework for my next block to do. well i went to atlanta bread company for a relaxing morning then i went to school and ppl gave me happy birthdays. and megan got me ( Read more... )

its like playing with fire. everyone loves to touch a candle, you know just float your hand over it. you play with it until you get burned and its weird cause you know that you are going to get burned. but with me its even weirder cause i think i would like to get burned just so i could feel the warmth for that short moment. i like think that ( Read more... )

uh today started with me getting throw out of the house. i couldnt wake up this mourning. wow, excellent grounds for throwing you first born child out. well he called me back in after a while and just told me how im not gonna make it next year. wow, i havent heard that. im gonna prove him wrong. well today at school was nothing. i came home ( Read more... )

Today was boring as shit. I woke up at 10:00 to a 2 yr. old and 7 yr. old in matching pj's tackling me to wake up. My 7 yr. old cousin, Dylan, woke me up just to play one game of Madden. Of course i did and of course i left it all on the field in that game. kicking the shit out of him 45 to 0. then i went back to bed and woke up at 12 to see ( Read more... )