she's being so selfish. dating other guys. she's not thinking about how i feel. even if she is, she's not doing anything about it to gratify me. she's thinking about her own self indulgences. if she weren't being selfish. she wouldn't have gone on that date. cause she would know that i'm not ready to handle that. thank God i had friends with me to ( Read more... )

i suffer from heart ache and confusion. no wonder i'm scared and lonely. so this really fucking sucks. i really don't want to be here, and i always wonder, "Why me?".

i feel so blah. i guess i should at 4:23am. still feeling a little shitty. i swam a little tonight. it was good, but now my eyes burn. i think shannon is obsessed with greg, which is funny. i had a cream soda tonight. yummmmm ( Read more... )

i'm open. i'm free. i'm lost. i bleed.

there's lots of things left inside of me.
to peirce and prod at my heart.
it wasn't you that tore me apart.
it was all the things i did.

turn your back to me.
i've let you go free.
now you're done with my pain.
colder than a december rain.

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i try to be a good brother by doing things for my sister. i want her to look up to me like chrissy looks up to her bro ( Read more... )

so i'm shift manager now, YAY ( Read more... )

alot of stuff has happened thats just kind of screwed me over. still is but people don't know it.

the new Atreyu cd is SO FUCKING AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its been all kinds of weird. i got a new ceel phone finally. my other one would keep shutting off all the time. RANDOMLY! i know offically LOVE Moutain Dew: Code Red. today was the first day i actually served people at coldstone. i was so nervous cause i just learn how to "gather" the proper amount of ice cream about 5 minutes before, it was my ( Read more... )