I suck and driving today, I probably should not drive anymore, but of course I have too ( Read more... )

Hrmmm, I keep getting up early in the mornings, even when i stay up late. It's kindda sucking, maybe my body just knows its school time. Unfortuantely, I dont have to be anywhere, I have all online classes. I'm hoping today goes real good, and i hope this "first impresion" stuff isnt going to bleed over to another week/weekend. Im just super ( Read more... )

so tonight was an eye opener because everything i've been saying sucks. I'm completely had a 180. I love Laura, i just get super frustrated with a lot of things. It sucks, I should be able to operate better but I cant, I felt real bad. I want to cry a bit, but its all my fault. I love her, I would be nowhere without her.

Last night, was wierd. I dont know, I cant explain it. Its funny how she made me set this up but she never checks it, so its turning into the journal she never gets to see but its laying right in front of her eyes ( Read more... )

Today has been pretty miserable. I have figured out the cure for emotional pain, SLEEP. I have a feeling I will be doing a lot of it for the next week(s), month, maybe longer. Who knows anymore. Sadly its all because I lost it for a little bit, then it made everything else crumble. I think im going to be solo tonight, I have no idea what to do. Jon ( Read more... )

Its just funny how things can change so rapidly. I'm just really confused, everything that was absolute and certain isnt anymore, I dont understand anymore. Its funny when people can judge you and your current situations without even knowing a darn thing about you or anyone else. Im just thrilled ( Read more... )

I've meant to post this a long time ago. Its funny when a cousin of yours, who you rarely speak to tells you mother your too innocent/sensitive to date. Funny because he kindda nailed my personality. Some other wierd coincidences happened too, i just forgot them. I've been extremely happy lately, the mood spells are almost 100% eliminated, i have a ( Read more... )

My old pictures are sweet, this page is sweet since i dont listen to thrice anymore. I returned to make laura happy. Probably wont check much, i didnt know this thing was still alive.

Lost 2-1 in the finals today. Got to play more, still pissed off about it though. Felt tempted to fight a coach. I think we showed them they we can play with them. Shit talking will continue like always. I;ve had to re-pierce my right ear 2 times this weekend. I have a visit tuesday to Dana, i think they want to shell out $$$ to me. Think i'll be ( Read more... )

Even though we are in the state championship game tomorrow, (for my first and last time) I'm so pissed. I worked my ass off every minute i was in and i'd just get pulled out right away. Tomorrow will be my last soccer event for Stannard in awhile. I can't argue with the guy because he's a dick and will just say i'm complaining but it's not just me ( Read more... )