it's not exactly lies though... whenever I read it- I just think you're holding back. You may not mean it to be that way but I can tell. I'm sure someone else has noticed also *shrug* but I'm weird so maybe it is me?
you should be documenting. You're in SF right now. I was looking back through old posts of mine, my LJ used to be awesome... I wanna try and start it up again. Its nice to be able to go back and look at japan posts from like 2003
but that's my whole point. i love the idea of lj, but it feels useless now that a lot of the important and emotional things (hundreds of entries) have been deleted
Is this how you feel about your journal, or how you are existing in the world? If it's just the journal, it's a little sad for us who give a shit about you, but otherwise not really tragic. But if the journal change in a symptom of an overall self change, a retraction of self-examination perhaps leading to a lessening of self-awareness and a partial-fogging of things in general, well then . . . I would encourage pushing the journal thing a little more, in an effort to reverse that. Use the privacy settings, if it helps. Sometimes I post something as "private" just to see how it would potentially look on the screen, see if it looks like me. 9/10 of those things get deleted before they ever see the light of day, but I think they're relly informative.
Hope you don't entirely disappear from on here. I always enjoy reading about you.
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whenever I read it- I just think you're holding back. You may not mean it to be that way but I can tell. I'm sure someone else has noticed also *shrug* but I'm weird so maybe it is me?
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I was looking back through old posts of mine, my LJ used to be awesome... I wanna try and start it up again. Its nice to be able to go back and look at japan posts from like 2003
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Hope you don't entirely disappear from on here. I always enjoy reading about you.
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