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[sirius_is_a_dog]

I suppose it's old hat for most of you. How do you cope when a friend of yours graduates? Do you cope? Do you sweep it under a carpet and pretend, carry on, look to the next flood or port or whatever else will be coming along to bugger with you?

[He still isn't ready to discuss his other self, not over the network. He thinks about it constantly;

Comments

[worstsongever]

...I haven't really thought about it. Maybe I just haven't been here long enough. I don't know, I'm not really good at letting go of friends, but graduating here's a good thing. They'll get to go on to their lives, so. i don't know, I guess I'd just try to be happy for them.

[sirius_is_a_dog]

I am happy for her.

[worstsongever]

I figured you would be. Are you bummed?

[sirius_is_a_dog]

I miss her. I'm really happy for her, but I miss her. This is the first person I've been close to who's left the Barge.

[He tries not to think about his other self and what he did, but of course, it's right there with him. He knows it's stupid to bring it up yet again, so he doesn't.]

[private]

[dovehearted]

Didn't understand it when my warden told me. [She's got a guess, but every instinct in her is telling her it's wrong, and not something to change.] Good luck finding out, if you don't.

[private]

[sirius_is_a_dog]

Thanks. I think I'll need all the luck I can get.

If you don't understand what your warden told you, make him/her explain it again. That's his/her job. You're still a person, you have a right to know what the hell is going on.

[dovehearted]

Trying to do things first. It'll make more sense than thinking too hard.

You try it?

[sirius_is_a_dog]

My Warden doesn't know why I'm here either. We're trying to figure it out. He's letting me read my file right now.

[Private]

[majorum_pride]

I'm here because I betrayed my closest friend for the sake of stopping an oncoming threat.

[This is not actually why he's here, but since it's the thing he feels worst about it's why he thinks he is.]

...I don't like being left. [Oh, how he doesn't.] But I understand the necessity.

[Private]

[sirius_is_a_dog]

I was falsely accused of betraying my best friend. I would have died first.

[He doesn't know Rhade's situation, but he would let the world burn before he ever betrayed a friend. Probably not the right choice.]

I try to tell myself she's in a better place and blah, blah, blah, and it's all true, and I know that, but it's still really hard.

[Private]

[majorum_pride]

It wasn't worth it. [Oh, the problems of being not quite evil. Knowing he did something wrong. But not what it was that he did wrong.]

I do too. I miss her, even if I know it was for the best.

Inmates:

[veni_vidi_valui]

I know why it's supposed I'm here.

Inmates:

[sirius_is_a_dog]

Why is that?

I get where you're coming from - my Warden thinks I may be here for certain reasons that don't make much sense to me.

Re: Inmates:

[veni_vidi_valui]

And as much as you try to complain, nobody takes a blind bit of noticed...

[deepdowndark]

You know they've got their life back and they've got what they want - out of here - in the end. But remember it's mostly their work, and not their wardens'.

[Inmate filter]

I've heard theories.

Most of them based in being held to standards and moralities that Dwarfs don't adhere to.

As I've broken the Laws and repented, but not moved an inch. Or, more accurately, disappeared for two months and come back without anyone telling me.

[Inmate Filter]

[sirius_is_a_dog]

Wait. You disappeared for two months, but you didn't know you had disappeared?

And I don't understand how you can be made to follow laws that don't apply to Dwarfs. That doesn't make any sense.

Re: [Inmate Filter]

[deepdowndark]

Exactly that. I thought it was not long since Svetlana's... incident, shall we say? Didn't know otherwise until informed.

It doesn't, does it? And yet it's what the city tried to enforce and what this place is trying to enforce.