It finally came back to me. This feeling of deep despair. I can't explain how it came back, it just did. I feel as if all of the sudden, the world's weight was put back on my shoulders. I feel as if I can't handle it anymore. I would give anything to make this pain go away. But it never will. I give up on being happy ever again. I would sell my ( Read more... )

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Ok, Christmas was two days ago. It was just another day here in Tennessee. No surprises, no nothing. I know it was going to happen that way, but still, it's weird. We went to see The Aviator, which was an amazing movie. There was one bad part of the film. There was a picture of llamas in the guy's sitting room, which he got from Peru. And I saw the ( Read more... )

Ok, my last entry received a comment saying that Tara isn't real and I'm a psycho. This person left it as an anonymous user. Funny, because it couldn't be any more obvious as to who it is. Juliann, I know it was you. My only question is why does it bother you anymore? Huh, answer that one honestly. You have Tony, you should be happy. Why aren't you ( Read more... )

I can't wait until tomorrow. I get to see Tara tomorrow, so we have some good times coming. And her dad is letting her stay here for a couple of days. Can you say OMG this totally rules. My father and I were supposed to go to the mountains today, but it rained, so we didnt go. It's cool though, we can go some other time. I so can't wait though, I ( Read more... )

I feel very strange right now. Do you remember the dreams I told you about the girl that was calling to me, from Atlanta, I found her. The blonde girl that was my light in the darkness, she is here, well in Atlanta. It's Tara. I know it, looks and voice are identical. The whole attitude is the same as it was in the dream. I feel like I am in a ( Read more... )

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My first journal entry here, better make it a good one. I have a lot of pressure to make it good. What am I gonna do? Just joking around, no pressure at all. I have been feeling great lately, ever since I left Buffalo. I think it isn't that is one of the reasons why. Tennessee isn't the greatest either, but Atlanta is awesome. I'm going tomorrow ( Read more... )