why does it sometimes feel too scary to live? it wouldnt all be better to hide under the covers, but im frightened to go out in the open. it feels good this time. and i cant stop crying ( Read more... )

so when i was hanging out with ed harris yesterday, he told me to just relax, feel my feet on the ground, and let life happen. he said that its not important for me to try to make things happen, just know what i need to do and let the path occur. dont fight it, just experience it to the best of my ability. adding nonchalantly, 'same goes with ( Read more... )

"dont know why im still afraid. if you weren't real, i would make you up ( Read more... )

skype is pretty hot. you should get it and talk to me. writing this entry to know what day it is. a jobless future looks a little boring, actually. we are saying goodbye slowly. maybe shes right - she will be a blip in my life. but im happy to have invested. adventure time with justin. its not fair to be ignored, we both did as much as we ( Read more... )

every time i fall so hard
and in the final stretch, i give up

germans are cold
irish are simple
i hitchhiked alone and made it out alive and happy
and 10euro wealthier

i like it here

nature! love! life! being with people! eating good food! watching water! hugging! sleeping! cool breezes! snowball fights! chasing pigeons! getting lost in a library! silly dancing! singing at the top of my lungs! cartwheels! elypticalizing! showering! holding hands! finding squirrels! shopping on sale racks! eating apples while walking down the ( Read more... )

opening night of the threesome ( Read more... )

i dont understand why one has to be drinking, has to be smoking, to be social in any capacity. once i was seen, i was accepted for the first time and led thru the door. sinead ( Read more... )

too many firewalls for me to get aim to work on the wonderful wilsons laptop... anyone have any suggestions?

an irish girl put her arm around me today, an irish boy put his hands on my head last night... i think im breaking some barriers. silly non-physical irish.

HELP! HEAR ME! SEE ME! REMEMBER ME!! why am i fading... i dont like to admit

sometimes i really want to come home
and sometimes i love that ive done this
but sometimes i want to go home to what i know
what if its not real anymore
the strange thing is, this really doesnt feel real
at all
i feel like im in a dream world, suspended...