...And I don't remember why I came

[sirthinkalot]

I'm a rat trapped in a cage. I can't stand this place, nor handle it anymore. All I know is, I need to get out. I see myself withdrawing from everyone, and everything. I have no appitite. The stress is triggering my migrains, and on random nights I'm vomiting blood. I am in hell, and there is no escape. Someone, anyone.....nvm.

Comments

[azibeth]

You can handle it a little longer. I know you can. Joshua has gotten so big, and he's learning more everyday. I wish you were here to see him. He calls me A-ma now. And he can hold up his head when he lays on his stomach. He's starting to express his temper, and it's kinda cute. He's starting to teeth, he's found his hands, and he's trying to talk. He makes the gr sound and it sounds like he's growling. I miss you, and more importantly our son misses you. I hope you know I'm here if ever you need me. You have to get through just a little longer. Your son is waiting for you. He needs his father.

[azibeth]

I know you prolly don't care to talk to me, seeing as you always ask who I am, and then I hardly ever hear back once you know it's me, and I'm sorry for that. But I thought we were still friends and such, so I'm still trying. I send you pictures of Joshua via phone, but I dunno if you get them. I don't care one way or the other about us not dating, but I'm not about to let you walk away completly. I don't care if that makes me selfish, or whatever... really I don't. We have a son, and it's as simple as that. It's not like I'm out to steal you back from Angela, that would prolly only make both of us twice as miserable as we are now. I wished I could have talked to you, since Sasha died, but Adam helped me through it, he's been there for me a lot lately

[hell_fire69]

baby calm down please i know everything really sucks right now. but we can get through this i swear to you. i'm always just a call away. and if i could i would be up there with you. we just need to deal with this for a little while longer. your going to come. your trying your best and now we just need to wait on your commanders to do their part. i love you and i'll always be here for you no matter what.