Song of the Month February

[siryn_song]

Sky- Ingrid Michaelson and Joshua Radin

Comments

[siryn_song]

I think it speaks to my abandonment issues. But it's a beautiful song.

Take your time.

[skids_sally]

Wow. I like that song. Its very pretty but so bittersweet.

Are you still drinking?

[siryn_song]

It's very beautiful. And yeah, bittersweet is a good word to describe it.

No. It's been a really hard stuggle lately (it always is, but you know, moreso), and there's been times when I've been so tempted that I almost gave in. But I haven't.

[skids_sally]

You're strong, Terry, and I'm really glad you haven't.

[siryn_song]

Thank you, Sally. I'm glad too.

Question:

[kara_marie]

How did you become an alcoholic - and I don't mean the obvious physical predisposition to being an addict, I mean, what happened, what's that chapter in your life?

Re: Question:

[siryn_song]

I guess it started when my uncle put me in boarding school. I felt like he was abandoning me because I wasn't useful enough to him, or good enough at what we did. I got in with the bad girls at the school, and they had alcohol and taught me how to get it, and it just made everything hurt less that way. I had friends and I was having fun (sort of) and I didn't have to constantly think about my uncle not wanting me.

It was a defense mechanism that never really stopped. And then I wanted it even when I wasn't hiding from something.

I guess that's why I always have a stronger urge to drink when someone leaves. Classic conditioning or something.

Re: Question:

[kara_marie]

Yeah... I think we all revert to our "comfort" behaviours when people leave us.

Re: Question:

[siryn_song]

Yeah, I guess we do. Too bad mine isn't eating cheesecake or something. :)

[erikscordelia]

[siryn_song]

It's really pretty. I want to upload it but my mun's wireless won't stay connected long enough.

Happy almost birthday!

[erikscordelia]

[siryn_song]

You have every song in the world!!

Doing something special? Dinner? Party with a magician and balloon animals?

[ticktabby]

Aw, Terry. That's a pretty song.

I really don't have a question. I think the stuff I know about you should come like organically. (Big word, go me! :D)

[siryn_song]

It's such a pretty song. I love it.

Yeah, I don't mind not being asked tough questions with no lead in. I offered myself for it, but.

So ask me something silly!

[ticktabby]

Am listening to it nao!

Oh, I totes know cutie, but I'd feel bad asking you something that could bring back bad stuffies.

How can I help with your shelter stuff?!

[siryn_song]

I have no music on now because Tripod is asleep and he gives me the stink eye when I wake him up.

What a nice way to put it. You're sweet. But I don't mind, really.

That is an awesome question! What are you good with? I can set you up with some volunteer time, unless you are interested in an actual job.

Okay, that wasn't an answer though. Hah. I need paperwork people, research help, a lot of stuff at the moment is very data-y and office work. Boring stuff for you, I'm sure. But I can always use your help with planning. Expansion to more hands on work is our goal.