I'll forgo the usual lamenting on how long it's been since I've posted ( Read more... )

You can just feel the details. The bits and pieces you never bothered to put into words. And you can feel these extreme moments... even if you don't want to. You put these together, and you get the feel of a person. Enough to know how much you miss them.

There were moments of cold and there were flashes of light ( Read more... )

My date today was awesome. I met Kasi at the park, we set down our picnic blanket and set out the food, had some polite conversation while we ate. After we ate, I lied down on the picnic blanket, and Kasi tickled me a bit. We wrestled around for a little bit, and ended up face to face. We shared our first kiss then, and it was wonderful. We made ( Read more... )

I have a date on monday! This is the first real date I've been on in ages. The girls I've met on OKCupid don't really count. Even though I did get along with them, there wasn't any real chemistry. I hung out with Karlin again today. We went to the boulder county fair. Saw some bunnies, a HUUUUUUGE horse (19 hands tall), goats, sheep. We went to the ( Read more... )

I'm not sure if I haven't really felt like updating lately, or haven't had time, but it honestly hasn't occurred to me in the last week or so to even post anything here. The last week and a half has been full of ups and downs ( Read more... )

Yesterday was a good day, all told. I woke up at about 9, realized I hadn't taken my meds the night before, so I took a half a pill, so that I could take a full pill at night. Stuff made me sleepy, so I took a nap around 11:30. Was woken up around 2:30 by Nikki, calling me to wake Preston up so they could go swimming. As they were on their way out ( Read more... )

The last week has been amazing for my self-esteem. On Saturday, I went up to Greeley to go to my friend Nick's birthday party. I met Nick through work, he donates occasionally, and we get along really well, so I decided to go to his birthday party on the 4th (his bday is the 5th). I'd never hung out with Nick before, and I didn't know any of his ( Read more... )

So I've come to realize that Nikki was the only thing keeping me sane. After she broke up with me, I had a complete nervous breakdown. I could hardly compose myself at work, I was constantly having anxiety attacks. Suddenly nothing made sense. But it's not a bad thing that I lost it. "It's only after disaster that we can be resurrected." Once I had ( Read more... )

Yesterday after I took my pill, I got drowsy again, and took another nap. felt alright through most of the day, but got a bit lonely when I realized I was the only one in the house. Left for ben's at about 4:30. hung out for a bit, feeling pretty alright. When we were at the alley cat, we talked about Nikki for a bit, and that triggered some ( Read more... )