im sick and tired of being so damn stressed out

rent 900 bucks- i have 200
i dont know what the fuck to do.

i wish i could find a job to do for a few days, so i could make rent =[

i  find it funny that a 15 year old pregnant girl thinks she could beat my ass. 
stupid fucking cunt, go fuck yourself.

 The only two people in the whole world i could talk to right now arent answering their phones. i guess it is pretty early for them. i just need someone to talk to more than anything right now. im so scared...i dont think ive ever been this nervous in my life. i hope everything goes good. angel if you read this soon call me please =[ i need a

 i just want to stop, but i cant. 
i need help, but i dont know what kind.
i hate myself right now.
i hate my life right now.
my job sucks.
school is annoying me.
i cant stop crying right now.
why did i have to do this to myself?

This Saturday im having a halloween party at my house. 
Costumes preffered
bring alcohol or money to buy some if you will be drinking.
were also bbqing so bring some meat or fake meat if you want to grill. 
If you want to come comment and ill give you directions. 
I hope some of you come =]

making snowballs at work and playing baseball with a broom, the snow, and kenneth is fun. yep

California was alot of fun last weekend. The drive there was terriable. I almost feel asleep a million times, i got off on the wrong exit, missed the right exit, and then it began raining(i dont have windshild wipper blades). Once we got there though it was worth it. We rented the movie Vacancy(WORST MOVIE EVER), drank, and then went to sleep. ( Read more... )

 Im wishing that I wasnt going to Cali. This girl I hate is going to be there too. I don't hate many people, actually I only hate her. haha I have to see her Saturday night and be nice. I dont like being nice to people i dont like. I really want to see her and punch her right in the face and call her a cunt.  Fucking bitch. I really just want to ( Read more... )

 Im so tired of my job. Every day is the same and Its making me depressed.

I dont even want to get out of bed anymore.

 Roadtrip to California this upcoming weekend.  Its cassies birthday, so me and Shaun are going to drive down and stay the weekend. I havent had a vacation in such a long time ( Read more... )