I hate myself

[sissywest2]

It's amazing how easily some people can break a promise, how easily some people can just walk away. I'm tired of rebuilding myself, of puting the pieces back together. And to know that I was weak enough to let the same person break my heart and spirit twice makes it hard to even look at myself in the mirror

Comments

[sweetpea2264]

I have a feeling that he does this to ALL girls he "dates." Not to make light of this, your feelings are very real and raw. You are a wonderful person for actually caring for him. He goes for the smart, pretty, financially stable women, so I have to believe that you had: 1)a car, 2)a job, 3)liked sex, even the kinky kind, 4)was willing to let him live in your home, 5)catered to him.
I was the bill payer, the referee, the one who kept him together, as well as myself when we dated. I allowed myself to trust him, I let him go out to all hours of the night. I at first, believed his lies. When I confronted him about the lies, he made more. Then he kidnapped me, tried to take my child from me, tried to steal my car, and then tried to kill me.
That's some SHIT. I HATE HIM. My feelings are not of shame that I dated him, but of pure hate for this monster in human form.