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Sleepless as in Situationgirl

May 13, 2009 01:25

Tonight is one of those nights when I feel like I may stay up until dawn just to feel a little pseudo-loneliness, seeing the light wash up against the mountains and remind me of how the possibilities really are infinite and not as dead-end as they seem to be right now ( Read more... )

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misswrite May 13 2009, 10:42:12 UTC

Wow. I think your feelings sound perfectly justified. I wish there was something more specific I could say to help, but I'm sending warm thoughts your way, and hoping you two find the happiness you deserve.

asarotte May 13 2009, 13:38:46 UTC

I have felt what it seems like he's going through and I only wish I had someone who stood with me at the time, even though I probably would have done every stupid thing I could do to push her away. It was a feeling of stagnation, mental claustrophobia with a feeling of complete powerlessness where nothing could be right in the world (even the things that I didn't realize were). It's a dangerous place to be because when all patience is tapped, you tend to lash out at everything and everyone around you, thus isolating yourself even more ( ... )

khasael May 13 2009, 18:31:06 UTC

I wish I had concrete advice for you, but my brain is all fuzzy right now. Just know that I have a decent enough idea of what you're going through. Besides the fact that our husbands are quite similar in a lot of ways, I had a 2 month experience with the caregiver/spouse thing (which, I know, is nothing compared to what you've been (and will be) dealing with), and some other brief stints in addition to that one. When I hear that whole "I hate my life and every single thing in it", I can't help but be hurt... because I take it as no matter how hard I try, I'm no good and don't help, either.

All I can really offer you is my support. Know that I'm always here if you want to talk (or even text, depending on the hour). Maybe once August hits, I'll be able to offer more in that area, and we can go out and get out of our houses for a few hours of coffee, and talking about books, writing, random crap, crazy people we meet through work, and of course, the boys.