will i matter? i am a speck of life that is connected with a enormous universe where everything matters...but does it?

i just want to feel like i will be something...er someone...to anyone.

( and when i wake up, everyone else is still sleeping )

freaking freaking freaking...christ.

that always pops into my mind whenever it's late and i can't think of ( Read more... )

Rules:
1. pick your month
2. italics anything that does NOT apply to you.
3. bold the four things that best describe you.
 4. copy in your own journal, with all twelve months under a lj cut. ( the 8th month )

new years sucked!

too much talking shit. the things i will find my way into. pick ups sucked ass. the boy i showed some affection towards talked shit about me but i probably should have seen it coming. affection at groundzero.

lame party with a creepy mother. what the fuck was she doing there!?

i hate my mother. (sometimes)

ah. well, christmas is over and i can say it was one of the better holidays or maybe that's just because i am now 'old' enough to realize how precious the company of my loved ones is. i got some nice presents and a few not so great presents. like the book about god i got from my aunt. *sigh* it's quite funny though ( Read more... )

two more days of school then break but its not break because basketball is dumb.
alex is trying to play matchmaker. how fucking ridiculous. that stuff never works for me.

i can't wait for the days where i can sit and relax. basketball is killing me.

mother crying.

me looking like an ass. .misunderstood.

i was a brat. no more christmas for me. can't we all just be happy?

i bet you see right through me?

what's the point? no one's listening anyway.

i treat my coach like a coach and not a friend...i will show a pissed off emotion when you tell me i don't care and i don't work hard and when you call me out in the locker room after a game i will damn well stare you in the eyes and take in every word you say becos all i did was frown and laugh at you becos you said i and my team have no heart or ( Read more... )