fixated

[sixtyfivehearts]

A bit mad cos it's been 4 days since my mum left for miami and so far all my dad does at home is fix things. Fix the cupboard, fix the remotes, fix this, fix that, fix everything I don't care much about. So we've been eating rubbish compared to usual even though there's a lot of food in the fridge we're supposed to decide what we wanna do with. I

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[kisscathgoodbye]

i think youre just too stubborn, and nothing will ever please you. the problem is not about the future, or the lack of possibilities, but how unwilling you are to realize that you are the one who has to do something for them to all happen.
it's like you're just waiting for someone to tell you what to do, for something to just happen like how it has been for your entire life.

[kisscathgoodbye]

youre my favorite friend, but sometimes knowing that this is the way you think just really, really frustrates me.
all you do is say no to everything before you even consider that something might come out of anything.

[sixtyfivehearts]

Eh but thats the thing, because what I'm asking myself is if I even really know what I want. All that said.. like I said I have some regrets, but I still don't know what else it is I should be doing now. E.g. if we're referring to getting out I think I've done everything I possibly could to find a way. Cos this is so ambiguous but its almost like you're saying there's something I should do...

But I know what I need to do now... work! haha