11 hours before I leave home for the airport, genuinely unsure how the news that comes tmr is gonna determine my plans as well, I'm quite nervous about leaving. I wouldn't say I'm prepared. I really don't want to cry but the uncertainty is definitely helping, though its also making me a lot less excited than I would ever have imagined. I wish I ( Read more... )

I ought to be very contented with everything at this point.

Happy here, not happy there, one thing buffers another. Its good enough as long as it all goes around in the end.

I talk to you as to a friend
I hope that’s what you’ve come to be
It feels as though we’ve made amends
Like we found a way eventually

It was you who picked the pieces up
When I was a broken soul
And then glued me back together
Returned to me what others stole

I don’t wanna hurt you
I don’t wanna make you sway
Like I know I’ve done before
I will not do it ( Read more... )

As I think about all my current worries I also think about how each one that I've had has turned out alright in the end. It makes me feel like I put myself through too much unnecessary distress, but it really is a shield against rude shocks of the worst possibilities that do happen sometimes. Why has it been so hard to know that everything will be ( Read more... )

Before I spend the rest of the morning DESPERATELY catching up on so much shit I haven't done, but because I'm too excited and I like to plan, post-11am tmr:

-Clean up my computer and update my HDD
-Collate some photos to develop since I have passport photos to print (and there's a minimum right?)
-Celebrate my birthday (actually kinda dread this ( Read more... )

The rate at which I'm going is super fail. I should be giving my all for this final paper and I had the privilege of 7 days to do that. But no, because everything is so bothersome and unsettling, I have to keep my fingers crossed (and they still are), I really haven't been able to direct substantial attention to doing very much productive. And I ( Read more... )

The internship agency is a piece of shit and I swear I would NEVER recommend it.
This local one man show is running a business at the most incompetent level I have ever seen. We're practically running it for the woman because she doesn't even know wtf to do, and all she does is forward us what the main agency says without even knowing what they mean ( Read more... )

So last night I realized that we might not get proofs of degree completion in time for the company, don't know if the GAPS module tracking (which I have a habit of printing) that shows the credits completed will suffice for at least that bit of time. The HB seem really nice so just hoping it all goes well in that respect, got me worrying for a ( Read more... )

Ok I really need to get over my thoughts...

If you read my tweets you'll know that up till now my dad's still not letting the matter rest, well he doesn't know how far I've taken my plans and my mum doesn't wanna let him know, that maybe except for the US embassy nothing else is stopping me now.

It's like some power game for control. He hasn't ( Read more... )