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[sjshipper]

I am not quite sure I can do this.

It felt an awful lot like "seriously this is all I can handle" about 12 months ago, so how the next 3-6 months are going to go is beyond my ability to predict.

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[ziparumpazoo]

*hugs*
I can't even imagine what you are going though, but know that I am thinking of you and hoping that everything sorts its self out for you very soon. Your son is possibly acting out because he's confused - doesn't know what is going, but he knows that *something* is changing. It doesn't take much to set my boys off (even a visit from Granny), but I know, with them at least, routine helps. Very strict routine. Even when I don't have the energy to stick to it. It's comforting for them to have something solid and predictable to hang on to, especially when you can't possibly squeeze in any more spare time to give him the extra attention he might be needing right now. Hang in there :)

Oh, you probably don't need more unsolicited advice, but I know a few people who have used Pods and have been quite happy. Experiences may vary.

[sjshipper]

*thank you* ever so much. Tomorrow I am blocking out a new and shiny routine to think through our goals for eachother and the timeframe for each. We've lived in [every day is a new day approach] for way too long. It may be hard to implement from the front-end, but I can see where the payoff would be dramatic. I let too much surface crap distract me from the essentials some times. Today was a very good, very bad day. I was proud that all the toddler-driven incidents I met with solid consistant limits. I felt in charge, and heard "I will work harder to build back your trust" coming from my preschooler on his initiative. So I go to bed happy on that front at least

[ziparumpazoo]

I felt in charge, and heard "I will work harder to build back your trust" coming from my preschooler on his initiative. So I go to bed happy on that front at least.Good for you! Just don't forget to build some time for yourself to recharge in there as well

[sjshipper]

That is good advice, on all points. Boys are tough, but I think it's worth all the extra work. I've had babyboy start doing more chorse, and I think he's going to catch on we're all part of this together. His increasing perception of household tensions is also motivation to start watching my step where my comments and grousing are concerned!

Hope you have a good weekend!

[audrich]

I'm so glad you posted about this - not because I'm happy that you are in theis situation, good grief, nothing could be further from the truth but because you felt you could tell us. You need to have a safety valve, because you, NOT your husband are bearing these burdens. Men do not think the same way that we do and because he's not out of it, he'll be 'out of sight, out of mind' no matter how much lip service he pays. With me, I sold anything that wasn't essential, that way it helped with the bills and also, if I sold it, I wouldn't have to pack it. I did 5 car boot sales that year (clean, price and lug the stuff along to a cold muddy field at 6am on a Sunday morning and stand like a lemon for hours while total strangers tutted over these THANGS that I had once paid a fortune for). And you know what I didn't care, I needed that money; I found I was made of sterner stuff than I ever thought possible and YOU ARE TOO

[audrich]

Sorry about the typos, I just really feel for you and was getting it all down.. I wish I could be there to help

{{HUGS}}

[sjshipper]

Oh thank you! Sometimes it feels like I have no one to listen to the honest truth, and am surprised and blessed that the "safety valve" comes to me in the form of of LJ friends. So thank you for the tips and the bolster to my mental stamina. Yes, I have begun to think in the perspective that life will go on and here are the ways to manage all the tough but mundane obstacles. Much of what I pack myself will be personal effects, and some of those can go right back into my mother's attic