I am dumb. I woke up at 3pm today. I am never drinking again. Ever. Again.
I have court in the morning. I am tired. I've been awake for 3 1/2 hours, good fight...good night.

Last night...I became inebriated. Mike waited outside for like an hour for a cab to show up, which never did. That was funny. When I got home I made bacon, eggs, bagels and home fries sliced from the finest Idaho Potatoes, all cooked in unhealthy old grease. It's like 65 degrees outside. I am broke. My car is still leaking gas. I woke up early to ( Read more... )

dude. It's 4:20. I think i should do drugs again. It's been years. One does not forget how to ride a bike ( Read more... )

I deleted my myspace. Why? I am not some fucking retard. No offense to whatever, but that shit is beat. The end of pretending. I am not that person. I am me. Nobody is real on that shit. I feel free.

Okay i've been freaking out. I've been doing a lot of crazy thinking lately...like "I could join the army!" or...well that sums it up. It sucks being alone here. I haven't really felt this alone since high school. I was far more alone then...but I don't know. It seems like all the time my friends seem to dwindle down...cassie just took off to cali ( Read more... )

My life isn't worth a shit anymore. Seriously...i almost flipped out, I was watching a movie with a friend and I almost had a panic attack. I am totally alone here, I don't have any back up. I am too old for back up. My mom lives in liverpool...I can't stay with her even if I wanted to. I have no place to live. Well I have my apartment and stuff. ( Read more... )

I just made a burrito. I feel better. Today(this week too) was really weird. I feel like shit kind of. I went to a cook out. I went square dancing. My friend got beat up and I chased one of the guys that did it until the cops caught him. An old friend just moved back to town and I haven't seen her in like 2 1/2 years...and my friend natalie called ( Read more... )

I think I've been taking life to seriously. For way to long. I do suck sometimes...but I don't know. I don't even know why I'm doing half the things i'm doing. I'm 22 and i'm totally out of it. I don't know who i'm trying to be. I gotta chill out. I need to take a break from thinking cause it's getting me nowheres. I think i'm gonna start to roll ( Read more... )

I'm a wicked scumbag. I forget sometimes. Maybe I don't completely forget, maybe thats where my underlying hatred of myself comes from.... Times when I'm not exactly sure why I feel like shit and I do...there are good reasons...even if i'm not directly thinking about them. I want cancer...can a cancer get cancer? this is retarded. I am fucking

I'm really dumb. I can't handle it. I don't know why I hangout with brynna. She treats me like a leper. She only hangs out with because i'm the only person that is there. I thought for awhile that she actually was my friend. She just uses me just like everybody that has used her in the past. I guess me being her friend is to even the score for the ( Read more... )