in my previous post i stated this is where i come when i have no where else to go to vent. here i go. i don't like competition, i don't think i should have to compete for someone's attention if they care about you. i just don't like this feeling, i know i'll be ok it's just a bad day. i wish i could be everything, i wish i could be enough. i want ( Read more... )

this is where i come when i have no where else to go. teriffic days drownd out by hurtful bits. i am nieve. i am wrong that people are good that people care that people want the best for you. it's all lies. that is a fact. fuck it. i'm content with my life sure i have wants but you try to believe in people....

I am not 100% happy or satisfied with my life but I am really glad that I feel a change in me. I have actually been able to control my emotions. I keep thinking it's too good to be true but then something else comes my way and a wave of calm comes over me and I can think instead of just reacting stupidly. I've failed so many times I was beginning ( Read more... )

venting venting... it is time ( Read more... )

ok so i think live journal is kinda lame... but it's a good place to vent. i would like to get out how i feel so it's not all bottled up inside of me ( Read more... )

i'm not a stupid girl, even though i am my own worst enemy. i will pull away, i don't want to defend myself or prove myself werthy. i'm growing and trying to figure out what i want in my life. i have found a few things i don't want.

knowing no one reads this anyway i figure i need a good catharsis ( Read more... )

Well, well, well... I haven't been on here in years. I was looking back at my old entries and it's crazy how much you forget about your life in just a short amount of time. All I can say is I was so fucking lame, well i really had no other choice. life sucked then, life doesn't suck as bad now. It's worse but the older i get i become more used to ( Read more... )

I don't know how I feel about New Years. I feel some what ok because it feels like a new beginning, even though it's still just time going by like usual. But something inside of me can't help but be cynical and look back on the year and think of all the time I wasted or all the stupid crap the happened. But I just know is that a form of clearity ( Read more... )

Yesterday Justin, Savannah, and I went to get tattoos!!! It was crazy and here are the results. The tattoo I got was my own design. I will get better pictures and put them up soon. Let me know what ya think. The guy who owns the shop gave Justin an apprenticeship at his shop and gave us our tattoos, that would originaly cost us $300 each for $150 ( Read more... )