I'm really homesick today... i dont know why. i just feel like I want to go to back for a day. But when I think about actually being there I dont see myself wanting to be there. it makes no sense. I cant explain it really. No matter what it will always be home. I was born there and lived there for twenty years. As much as i hate Squamish I'll ( Read more... )

I fucking hate phone cards. It tells me to call the number closest to me so I've been calling the edmonton number and getting charged double for my two hour long phone calls with alex. so on top of the sixty dollars I spent on the stupid phone cards I owe another 150 in calls. and that bill doesnt have the most recent calls that have been like two ( Read more... )

I have so much to say.... but it feels like a waste of time. I was really excited to go to my parents for christmas and take a day trip into van and see all my friends but I almost dont want to. Actually, at this piont in time, I dont want to at all. Apparently everybody misses me, but nobody tried to keep in contact. and our conversations on msn ( Read more... )

Its snowing.... like fucking crazy! I dont know if I should cry or jump around in excitement. I wasnt prepared for this. I wanted to get a new car before this happened. I thought I had another month! Damn alberta weather. I cant wait to go frolick in the snow tomorrow morning. If I make it home from work tonight... theres a very good chance my car ( Read more... )

I woke up in a much better mood today. so I went and handed out resumes. I got to the second place and they gave me a job right then. I got home and the first place I went to called and wanted me for an interview. I decided to go and see what my options were and they gave me a job too. So now I have to decide. Both jobs I'd be a cook, at one I'm ( Read more... )

FRUSTERATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i want to kill everybody right now.
I wish I was working tonight just so I didnt have to sit here and think about all this shit.
i dont like feeling like this again

i'm feeling sad today. this town sucks without alex. I quit my job. it wasnt the best job ever. they screwed me. I knew it was to good to be true, but I wanted to believe the guy so bad. I'm going to hit in upside the head with a piece of rebar. Soooo. I basically have nothing here. Everything was so great then it all went to shit. Alex moved, ( Read more... )

I had the greatest weekend ever. It was so awesome to finally see Alex. His roommates are pretty funny, one is a little crazy but he wasnt around much so it was all good. The bus ride there was long and painful. My dvd player died so I had to watch the movies they were showing. I cant even remmeber what they were called but they sucked. I didnt do ( Read more... )

I have a niece! She was born at 10:08 this morning at 8 lbs, 3 oz, full head of dark hair, 43cm long, ten fingers, ten toes. Her name is locklan chase packard. I'm not quite sure on how they are planning on spelling the first name, probably not how I've spelled it. I so called that it was going to be a girl. I thought it was going to be a boy most ( Read more... )

So I've been up for 23 hours now. I worked at NEBS all day then went to work at the bar till 3 this morning. I got home and everybody was awake.... Karen was having major contractions. They just left for the hospital finally. It's almost 6:30 am now. I'm so excited, I cant sleep. I have to work tonight again. I REALLY dont want to. I cant decide if ( Read more... )