Some days are diamonds...
I am not going to give great details on the visit to my father and stepmother's house. Suffice it to say that the drama llama appeared in all its four legged furry glory at the start of the evening.
I have a father that likes to leave out large bits when he is passing on important information. (Slams head onto desk)I know this. I know this. But when I ask (three times) "Are you sure your wife is going to be okay that I am bringing my boy and girl friend?" I figure this pretty much covers the "Oops I forgot to mention that." Well... not so much today.
Not long after arriving I come out to my stepmother who then starts screeching about "Are you sick?" Shoves me out of her house and tells us all to get out.
Okay, got that. Say goodbye to my Dad and leave.
Wow.
Then she comes rushing out to the car and herds us back into the house telling us that Dad had not warned her ahead of time, and that she would play nice since it was Father's day. She then goes off about being Italian and not getting us or our triad relationship. WTF??
Anyway, what I would like to talk about now that I have given the setup are my beautiful Beloveds. My Mines. I am not looking for sympathy when I say that I have been alone most of my romantic life. I have had people near me, even live with me, but rarely on my team. I didn't expect anyone to treat me well, and shock and amazement they did not.
For the first time ever, I had significant others willing to stand with and up for me. They were the interference I needed to get a few moments alone with my Dad to talk, they were the support when topics got ruff, they were the "pro Lecion" flag wavers(very vigorously under my stepmother's nose)and the voice of reason when things that were said could have caused me to loose my cool.
Wow.
I have this overwhelming sense of belonging. That my world is for the first time in awhile exactly the way I want it to be. It is odd to have certain expectations and behaviors your whole life and in one evening realize that they are not true anymore.
I have never doubted how absolutely that I love ulesegisa and sidhefire, but I got a birds eye view this evening of just how much they love me. It may seem stupid, but it took this for me to honestly all the way down to my toes believe it.
There is so much rich irony in this situation.
I have been hurt and estranged from my Dad most of my life. Now trying to mend that relationship, it grants me the realization that the love and security that I have been seeking my whole life is right here in front of me.
I can barely breathe for the overwhelming love that is exploding out of my chest. The happy tears are standing in my eyes, and the lump in my throat is making it hard to swallow. I am really glad I don't have to speak about this right now,because I don't think I could.
Wow.
So the shrimp were good, but being in the warm,safe,loving company of two people that I am completely in love with and that love me...priceless.
So at the end of the day all I can say is thanks Dad, couldn't have done it without you.
Wow.
Never thought I would say that.
I have a father that likes to leave out large bits when he is passing on important information. (Slams head onto desk)I know this. I know this. But when I ask (three times) "Are you sure your wife is going to be okay that I am bringing my boy and girl friend?" I figure this pretty much covers the "Oops I forgot to mention that." Well... not so much today.
Not long after arriving I come out to my stepmother who then starts screeching about "Are you sick?" Shoves me out of her house and tells us all to get out.
Okay, got that. Say goodbye to my Dad and leave.
Wow.
Then she comes rushing out to the car and herds us back into the house telling us that Dad had not warned her ahead of time, and that she would play nice since it was Father's day. She then goes off about being Italian and not getting us or our triad relationship. WTF??
Anyway, what I would like to talk about now that I have given the setup are my beautiful Beloveds. My Mines. I am not looking for sympathy when I say that I have been alone most of my romantic life. I have had people near me, even live with me, but rarely on my team. I didn't expect anyone to treat me well, and shock and amazement they did not.
For the first time ever, I had significant others willing to stand with and up for me. They were the interference I needed to get a few moments alone with my Dad to talk, they were the support when topics got ruff, they were the "pro Lecion" flag wavers(very vigorously under my stepmother's nose)and the voice of reason when things that were said could have caused me to loose my cool.
Wow.
I have this overwhelming sense of belonging. That my world is for the first time in awhile exactly the way I want it to be. It is odd to have certain expectations and behaviors your whole life and in one evening realize that they are not true anymore.
I have never doubted how absolutely that I love ulesegisa and sidhefire, but I got a birds eye view this evening of just how much they love me. It may seem stupid, but it took this for me to honestly all the way down to my toes believe it.
There is so much rich irony in this situation.
I have been hurt and estranged from my Dad most of my life. Now trying to mend that relationship, it grants me the realization that the love and security that I have been seeking my whole life is right here in front of me.
I can barely breathe for the overwhelming love that is exploding out of my chest. The happy tears are standing in my eyes, and the lump in my throat is making it hard to swallow. I am really glad I don't have to speak about this right now,because I don't think I could.
Wow.
So the shrimp were good, but being in the warm,safe,loving company of two people that I am completely in love with and that love me...priceless.
So at the end of the day all I can say is thanks Dad, couldn't have done it without you.
Wow.
Never thought I would say that.